It Won't Be Tonight
Standing on the precipice
That steep and craggy cliff that draws my wounded soul
I heard my heart
Urging me to jump......................
Whispered urging that turned to loud command
Loud command that turned to plea
That drowned out reason
And slowly deafened me.
I put my hands upon my ears
Senselessly
Like a blind man wearing glasses
When he has no eyes at all
Senselessly
Trying to block the scream
While begging for the fall.
I didn't want to love you
I didn't want to care............
I didn't want to see that face
That form that's standing there
I didn't want......
I didn't want
I didn't want your charms
Now look at me, a tangled mess
Uncradled by your arms..............
You threw me away
And I came back.............
I left you before you could do it again
You searched for me
And took me home
Tell me why are we lovers
When we cannot be friends???
We can't even be in the same room
Without tearing each other apart
We love and we lust......
When we don't even trust.....
And all we do is break each other's hearts.
This need of you is madness
Why can't I let you be?
You cannot live without me
And you can't live with me.
That bed, it is our battlefield.....
For our wars.... one after the next
We love and cry
We love and we die
For this wild and wounding sex.
And when we've licked our wounds
And mended..............
The heart bruise and the sore...
The passion that cannot be tamed
Soon calls us back for more.
And you hurt me and I hate you
But I love it more than life
Craving every wayward bullet......
Every slicing of the knife.
Then your dark eyes beg me to devour
As you give yourself to me
Lying helpless in your needing
And not wanting to be free.
We've run away so many times.....
Battered victims of love's thumps
And both have stood on that precipice
But no one ever jumps.............
We only turn around and run back to
The next sweet and savage fight
Swearing this mad love has got to end!
And knowing it won't be tonight.
©By Voo
the mad poet
who cannot run away.....
11/13/19
midnight