The Hunter and The Hunted

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The Hunter And The Hunted

My skin is different from yours                                               

It glows in moonlight
And burns in noon day brightness;
And yours is brown and burnished and beautiful
(Even to the eyes of the vanquished.)

How many moons I have been enslaved,
I do not know
I am a servant here with gold pierced ears
And I never learned to read the scrolls
Not written on men’s hearts.

Your people take joy
In hunting the proud and free,
Of which I am a daughter
Though underneath the pinpoint of your stare,
I clinch my fists and keep my face downcast.

But in my soul,
I know you know
That I am running free beyond this desert,
Climbing mountains and wading streams
And fleeing from your dark and hungry eyes.

Silken veils and chains of silver,
They cannot make me cower at your feet
The voices of my fathers call out in my dreaming
Warn me of the darkness 
Of your rivers and desires.

And yet, sometimes,
When moonlight falls,
And midnight breezes play their songs,
The harshness of the desert fades
And this cool oasis bids me stay.

But my heart is hard of hearing
And though it sways me,
I will not bend or break my vows
And so I serve you and I curse you
Through many watches of the sun and stars.

You walk alone tonight beside the river
Behind the rushes, I watch you go
Into the trees with their black blankets
You’re just a man, I see, without your armor
How tall, yet small and lonely you seem to me.

Running now with feet of fire,
I hide in shadow as I pursue your presence
Stalking you as you walk in night shade, unaware
Seeking what my soul seeks
With cold, unfeeling steel clutched in my hand.

Hunting you,
I think how good it feels to run,
How sweet the night tastes on my homesick tongue,
How the tyranny of your beautiful people
Has spoiled the ancient purity of mine.

I will show no mercy (for none have you shown me)
Even as I danced for you in firelight,
Fed you from my finger tips in starlight
Toiled for you a thousand dawns of daylight
And never knew the tender touch of love.

Rising with the midnight moon,
A cry of anguish, startling as a storm
Keens and wails and stops me in my tracks,
Shakes me to the core in heart confusion,
Drops me to my knees upon the ground.

You lift your hands to Deity I know not
In a language I have not yet mastered,
And barely understand
Beyond the no’s and yes’s of my slave’s commandments
(For obedience cares not if you comprehend).

In breathless wonderment, we listen,
The Deity, the silent sky and I
To mournful pleas to be released from torment,
From longings of a heart, broken and torn
More puzzling still: My name upon your lips.

I can wait no longer, this I reckon
For soon your weakness will pass
And the man be gone and the tyrant arise
And I will be his slave forever
If freedom is my fortune, I will find it in your death.

Your head turns as I rush at you,
The silver blade gleaming, and a heart that pounds
With blood and fury and a thing so strange
That it trembles my upraised and uncertain hand
Glowing in moonlight as it falls upon your face.

You do not move, I do not move
And time stands still between us
A cry issues from a mouth and I swear I know not whose
The hunter and the hunted, caught in traps that they have laid,
I stand a victor looking down

Into your brown and hopeful eyes.

©by Voo
March 23, 09
2:20 a.m. 
face by Mark*

Things Narcissists Cannot Stand

Number 1:  Not Getting Enough Narcissistic Supply


If a narcissist is running low on supply, which means the attention that allows them to feel like they are significant and exist, then a gnawing emptiness and anxiety starts to bubble up from within them.

And, it is obvious. You will see the stark difference to when a narcissist is high as a kite with enough narcissistic supply (attention) to feed his or her insecure and demanding ego, and when he or she is not being fed supply how a darkness and moodiness becomes apparent.

This is the danger zone, where the narcissist can turn on you or must abandon the scene, escaping to access much-needed supply out in the world in an attempt to escape the self-annihilating inner feelings of the defective and deeply insecure Inner Being.

Number 2:  People Not Believing They Are an Authority

Narcissists need people to believe that they are special, talented and knowledgeable.
They can suffer big time narcissistic injury if someone who has more experience and knowledge than they do, enters a conversation.
They may try to take over and not let the other person speak or change the subject.
If this is not possible, they will leave. Then, of course, dismantle this person’s credibility afterwards.

Number 3:  You Being Happy

This is such a reminder to the narcissist that you are able to access and experience good feelings, whereas he or she feels dead on the inside.
This is an added insult to the narcissist if your good feelings are to do with someone or something other than the narcissist.
The narcissist believes that they should be the centre of your universe. And, how dare you be happy, when the narcissist can’t be.
He or she will do anything to take away your good feelings.

Number 4:  You Being Successful

As far as the narcissist is concerned, it is they who should be receiving all the acclaim, attention and accolades.
He or she is pathologically jealous and envious if you receive any recognition.
It is likely that you will be punished for taking away some of what narcissists need to survive – precious significance.

Number 5:  Others Being More Attractive Than Them

Narcissists, due to their delusional version of self, believe that they are the most desirable person going.
If someone else turns up commanding attention for their looks or personality, then the narcissist will be furious and will attempt to demean them as much as possible.
They may purposefully keep their partners away from such a person, because of their horrific insecurities.

Number 6:  Having Limits Imposed

Narcissists hate boundaries. They hate being told what to do, as they feel like this is intolerable control.
They like to be completely non-accountable to others. To be like a normal person feels like a terrible horror to them.
They are a law unto themselves. Narcissists believe they should be able to have what they want, when they want, how they want. And how dare anybody tell them any differently!

Number 7:  Being Questioned

The narcissist believes that he or she is beyond reproach.
How dare you question the narcissist in any shape or form? They believe that you are supposed to allow them to do whatever they want to do, without question.
If you do question a narcissist, which of course you will, then you will be met with extreme defence mechanisms, rage or abandonment.
A narcissist will not tolerate it, let alone meet you reasonably to work things out.

Number 8:  Being Exposed

If, when the narcissist tries to mess with you, you have healed yourself from any fear, guilt or terrors of persecution and just calmly and clearly bring facts to the table, it makes them incredibly uneasy.
This is especially true when you bring other people’s attention to the conversations and interactions.
A narcissist can’t mess with you unless you allow them to drag you into the shadows.
Once you stand tall and true and bring things out into the bright light of exposure, a narcissist will shrivel up as much as a vampire does when a big bright light is shone on them.

Number 9:  You Refusing to be Hoovered

When you know and hold your value, and no matter what the narcissist tries to do, you do not succumb and allow yourself to be narcissistic supply again – the narcissist will perceive it as a huge insult.
Why aren’t you caving in to the charms anymore?
Why do you believe you deserve better or that you can live without them?
All of these questions plague and haunt a narcissist horrifically, and strip them of their self-importance.

Number 10:  Being Ignored

There is an incredible ego injury that happens to a narcissist when he or she is ignored.
When you become “anti-fear” as a result of doing the work on your Inner Self to have zero emotional inner triggers, then you are no longer interested in the games, rubbish and power plays.
You will detach and refuse to feed them supply anymore.
Without your fear, anxiety and heartbreak as the energy to keep powering up and hurting you, the narcissist runs out of fuel.
He or she feels powerless and despises that you cannot be affected anymore. The narcissist will and must take their nastiness and manipulation to somebody else to get a feed.

Number 11: You Thriving

It is the greatest insult to a narcissist that you have been able to let go, rebuild your life, move on and create more success and happiness for yourself than you ever had previously.
The narcissist believes that you should have been forever affected, and completely devastated and desecrated for life. It makes him or her feel oh so important!



*************I did not write this article, merely copied it from a forum**************