SABOTEUR
Saboteur
Love is like a Trojan Horse
It snuck silently into my life
Under false pretenses
On the one night I was not on guard.
You know I speak the truth
Deny it not
Those deep deep eyes
Couldn't hide the truth if truth was just a lie.
You think because you wear soft shoes
That you can dance on me
But you do an impressive pirouette,
Don't you?
Mockingbirds take lessons
For you excel at mocking
Filling the air with illusions of songs
That are only noises.
If I could legally exterminate
The memory of you, would I do it?
I lie in bed and think about that, hours on end
Dream of revenge, even as I grovel in wanting.
There is none so blind
As he who will not see
But I have looked and I have seen
And I have looked away.
And now I see with eyes wide open
All the ravages you brought with you
All the dents and damages
You left in your wake.
I barely recognize myself today
In the shattered mirrors of your eyes
So slyly does your mouth smile
And so coldly do your fingers touch my skin.
Yes! This is a poem for you!
Yes! This is a song about you!
Yes, yes, yes! This page is filled with love and hate
The two-edged sword you cut me with.
And all the things you make me feel
And all the deaths you make me die,
All the joys you crushed beneath your shoes
In the days that followed my surrender.
There was so much promise there
In the beginning.............
So much sweetness springing forth from me
Like a fountain flowing from a rock.
I thought you came from God
I thought you held the stars within your hands
And all the songs that had ever been written
Had been composed by you.
Saboteur! Traitor! Deceiver!
Lover!
How I long to take back every yesterday
And replace them with tomorrow!
You are a cold wind that ever blows
And no candle I can light will keep it's glow for long
You will not allow it.................
You will not give me the warmth I need to survive.
Saboteur!
Turning hope to dust and peace to war
Making unholy, that which was sacred in my eyes
As my brokenness falls upon your battlefield.
If I did not love you, it would not matter
If I did not hate you, I could not bear this pain
You were the traitor and I, the betrayed
And yet it is I, who stands before the firing squad at dawn.
But no more will I wear the hood and mask
No more will I twist myself away from what is coming
From this moment forward, when you fire that gun,
I want you to kill me as you look in my eyes.
You have made me into something I never was
And the only way to change me is to kill me
I will not beg of you but I will not run
My hate, a shield too heavy to hold................
Still wants to die in your arms
Love.
© by Voo
Aug 2, 2011
1:37 a.m.
