Who I Am

Who I Am


You make me feel like I need to apologize
For being alive
For existing on your plane so different from mine
So far above, or below
I never quite know
I only know that when you look at me
You don’t even know who I am.

You make me feel like a sideshow freak
Standing there within a solitary floodlight
Under the scrutiny of your criticizing eyes
Listening for things that I have not said,
Looking for things that will never appear,
Hunting for things that will never be found
And unable to hear what my heart has just spoken.

What makes us so different, you and I?
I crave peace, and you need war
I love laughter and you like the thunder
Of your own voice
Always debating, always berating,
Always arguing
Looking for offenses when I offer my wisdom.

Can you just not see what’s in front of your face?
How soft my touch is?
How sweet my smile?
How great is my love and how empty my heart?
I was born to care and I care so much
Yet I lie down with broken-ness
And I rise up with pain.

I am a child that has never known true love
And yet it flows from me like a dammed up river
Looking for dry fields to water and nourish
I am father-less and mother-less,
Child-less and friend-less
An innocent in a cold, jaded world
Ever waiting with hopeful eyes and tears about to fall.

How I love beauty!
And books full of romance,
Elegance and grace and soft, tender words,
Poetry and art and the music of Heaven,
Family ’round the table and the silver of rain,
Hands reaching to heal, not pushing away,
The giggles of babies and the smiles of a friend.

I would give you the shirt off my back if you needed it
I would cook you the biggest banquet you ever saw
And go hungry myself
I would slave on my hands and my knees in hard labor
If it meant that you wanted for nothing
And you know that I would, for I have, and I can
For that is who I am.

One day you will come to me, for the joy of my humor,
For the warmth of my face, and the glow of my hearth
Ask for the gifts and the time always waiting,
Run to the comfort that I’ve offered in vain,
Call out my name in rooms full of your pictures
(My illusions of love)
But I will not be there.

Look at me!
See me
Listen to me, know me
For I am worth knowing
I will not apologize for who I am
For who I am
Has made you who you are.

©by Voo
November 30, 2009
3:02 a.m.

Crazy 'Bout Doo Wop

I Only Have Eyes for You
by the Flamingos

Since I Don't Have You
by Skyliners

Raining In My Heart
by Slim Harpo

Only You
by The Platters
my favorite

Stand By Me

by Ben E. King

For Your Precious Love
by Jerry Butler

If I Should Fall Behind
by Dion and Belmonts
love this song!!

Ode To Women

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           
ODE TO WOMEN



ENTWINED AROUND AN APPLE TREE
SATAN SAID TO EVE:
"WOULDST THOU LIKE AN APPLE
FROM MY GOLDEN APPLE TREE?"

AND EVER SINCE THE APPLE
WOMANKIND HAS BEEN
BLAMED FOR ALL CALAMITIES
AND EVERY KIND OF SIN.

WHENEVER WE MAKE SMALL MISTAKES
IT'S TAKEN AS AN OMEN
MEN ALL SHAKE THEIR HEADS AND SAY
"NOW, THAT'S JUST LIKE A WOMAN."

AND MEN BELIEVE THAT WE CONCEIVE
CHILDREN JUST BY WISHING
'CAUSE THEY ALL SAY THAT MEN HAD RATHER
BE OFF SOMEWHERE FISHING.

HURRICANES AND SHIPS AND STORMS
ARE CALLED BY FEMALE NAMES
BECAUSE WE ARE SO WILD, THEY SAY
AND DIFFICULT TO TAME.

EVERY TIME YOU STUMBLE ON
A DRUNKARD BY THE WAY
HE'LL TELL YOU 'TWAS A WOMAN
THAT TURNED HIM OUT THAT WAY.

WOMEN MAKE MEN DRINK, THEY SAY
AND GAMBLE, STEAL AND DIE
WOMEN BREAK THEIR HEARTS OF GOLD
AND NEVER EVEN SIGH.

WHEN A BAD BOY GOES TO PRISON
WITH ALL HIS CRIMINAL BROTHERS
HE'S SURE TO SAY WHEN ASKED IN PITY
"IT STARTED WITH MY MOTHER."

POOR WOMANKIND HAS BEEN THROUGH MUCH
SINCE EVE PUT US IN PRISON
BUT AT LEAST SHE HAD THE GUMPTION
TO MAKE THE FIRST DECISION.

THE FEMALE IS THE STRONGER SEX
AND I PROVE MY STATEMENT'S WORTH:
IF MEN WERE MEANT TO BEAR THE CHILDREN
THERE'D BE NO LIFE ON EARTH!

WHAT WOULD MEN DO WITHOUT WOMEN
THOUGH THEY DISDAIN US WITH SCORN
DO NOT THEY REALIZE WE ARE ROSES
AND THEY ARE ONLY THORNS?

OF COURSE, WE NEED OUR COUNTERPARTS
DON'T MISUNDERSTAND THIS SONG
AND WE'LL COMFORT, LOVE AND KEEP THEM
(TILL SOMETHING BETTER COMES ALONG.)

©by Voo
when I was a teenager
and just found

Questions Seeking Answers

Questions Seeking Answers

You ask

And wait silently

For my answer

But I have none to give

Only hope to hope on

And wishes to wish on

And prayers to pray.

I don't know

Any more than you do

What tomorrow holds

Or what God grants

Or fate brings..........

Up until now

There has been no fairy tale

Or destined quest

Or dream come true

For me

And without question, you.

For only hearts

That have been broken

And discarded and dis-enchanted

Can ask the questions 

That you ask

Only souls that have been disappointed

And betrayed and un-restored

Can venture into that mire of uncertainty

And still risk losing it all once more.

Therefore, let us stay here

In this moment,

In this second that we have been granted

The best of all seconds among minutes and hours

And weeks and months and years of years:

This room full of love

And this endless kiss

This sweet satisfaction

And passionate bliss

It will not be enough for tomorrow, no

Nor any lonely day or night after that....

But it is enough for now.

The blazing fire cools

Compared to your touch

The wine sours

Compared to your kiss

The furs we lie on

Seem rough

Compared to your bare chest

And my silkened skin

That pulls you to me in hunger.

I cannot answer your questions, my love

But I can confess with candid heart

And willing soul..........

That I desire to know those answers

Just as much as you do

Perhaps, more

Perhaps, more...........

And perhaps tomorrow

Will bring us those answers

In one form or another.

Till then, hold me

Kiss me, bend me to your will

For I think you will find

That your will is my will

And mine, yours

As it always has been

And was in forgotten dreams

And is now, in this delicate

And beautiful moment.

For when you hold me

Close against your heart like this,

And kiss me tenderly like that,

And our eyes melt into one another's this way,

I can believe in fairytales once more

And destined quests and dreams that come true

Even if they never came true before......

And I can forget those questions

In search of answers that I don't know now

Because all that matters to me in all the world

Is this, this moment lying here with you

Feeling like a princess in the arms of a prince

Who has just inherited the kingdom

That was made with my love.

©by Voo

Dec 22, 2018

12:38 a.m.  

Do You? by Yiruma