Calling Your Name

Calling Your Name

(I stood alone calling your name

The clouds hid the sunlight and made way for the rain

Your name echoed back off the hills unto me

And my sad lonely shadow was all I could see.)

I'd sought you all of my life

Since I was but a child

I knew you were out there in the world

Somewhere in the wild.

For my dreams gave me glimpses

That my eyes couldn't see

And I knew that you existed

And were looking for me.

But my life took it's turns

Just as all lives, they do

And it distanced and detoured me

From the finding of you.

I met other lovers

I married and left

Two lovers who broke me

And left me bereft.

And I gave up on love

I gave up on life

For who needs a love

That's imprisoned in strife?

But my dreams never left me

They stayed buried, asleep

Laying stagnant and hidden

In my heart, oh, so deep.

And one day to my surprise

To my shock and my awe

My dreams were revived

By the face that I saw.

And the face was your face

A face I had known

In a dream, in a place

In a world of our own.

Where we walked hand in hand

As we walked through the world

Watching ages pass by us

As our dream lives unfurled.

Oh, and we were so happy

To just be we two

For I knew you loved me

And how much I loved you.

And I was your love
And you were my sweet boy
And our days and our nights
Were filled with pure joy.

But what we didn't know

Till much passage of time

That only in that dream world

Could you really be mine.

Till the Fates co-conspired

With the Heavenly plan

And allowed this sad woman

To once again find that man.

We had always had hope

That someday, and somehow

Our two dreams would collide

In the here and the now.

And they did in the last place

That we ever had thought

Stumbling there upon the one thing

That we always had sought.

What a mystery and joy!

What a sweetness divine

For my heart still was yours

And your heart was still mine.

And our souls meshed together

And our bodies belonged

Just as sure as a melody

With the words of a song.

But what cruel turn of fate

Like the changing of weather

Once again we are parted

And cannot be together.

And I call out your name

Like a prayer on the wind

Wondering how long it will be

Till I'm with you again.

For even a dream 

Will eventually die

And the reflection of your face

Will fade from my eye.

But my heart won't forget

When I take my last breath

That it loves you with a love

That is stronger than death.

 I'm calling your name again now

My sweet boy, my dear

Hoping this time you'll answer

And say Yes love, I'm here.

©By Voo

Oct 7, 2019

12:16 a.m.

The Late Beloved Mr. Magic Moo the talking cat...I miss him so!

Wisteria and Ever Afters

Love Songs flute cover

Wisteria and Ever Afters

💜

Whenever I see wisteria, I think of you

You and that moon on the water,

The candle, the wine

And the gleam in your shining eyes.

How my heart raced like a Serengeti gazelle

Being chased by a lion

My mind kept telling me to run away

While my heart demanded that I run toward.

And so I did........that starry night

Falling into your arms, your eyes

My mouth devouring your mouth

With a new appetite that would never be sated.

You made that shy girl into a woman

That woman into a princess

And the princess into a queen

A queen that knew she was loved by a king.

I remember how our bodies fit together

Like puzzle pieces,

How the moonlight highlighted the sweat

Running down them like liquid silver.

My hair draped over your face,

 I bent to kiss you

With a kiss I had only just learned to kiss

As your fingers wound 'round my curls. 

I was suddenly afraid of the urgent sounds

That issued from my own throat,

The breath that went out of me

And came rushing back like a violent storm.

I remember you said you loved me

And I felt it with every fiber of my being

Even though love had ever been foreign to me,

It coursed through my body and blood like a fire.

Afterwards, you wove strands of wisteria

And placed the purple crown upon my head

You made me feel serene and regal as you bowed
And then again, like a wild thing in your arms.

And I loved you back. god, I loved you!
The touch, the taste, the sight, the scent,
The breadth, the length
And every inch.

In two day's time, you were called away
--Not that you wanted to leave--
But the way of war overrules the love of life
And does not care how an unscripted fairytale ends.

Every time I see wisteria, I think of you

Your lips on mine, the sweet red wine

The moonlight and the water

I was your queen and you were my king...........
And that night was our happy but brief ever after.

💜

©by Voo Shining Stone
*words*

Aug 23, 2020

3:15 a.m.

The Evanescence of Love In The Year 2020

The Evanescence of Love

 In The Year 2020

Ethereal, though it was

In every way

Every day, it became

More and more eternal in it's scope

Everlasting, as it were

Even to the eyes of everyone else.

I admit, in terms of eternity

Few things last, most expire

In the exhalation of a breath

Or the exploration of the unknown

Everything but true love

Especially true love

Whatever that might be in terms of explanation.

But I saw in your expressive eyes

The ephemeral asking to become more permanent,

More tangible, more set in stone,

More inexhaustible and undeniable

And I stopped where I stood

And pondered upon the matter, expressed by your eyes

Yet unspoken by your mouth.

But upon the taking of my lips by yours,

All doubt fled away

And in your eager embrace

I found an earnestness and existence I had not known

But had extensively sought all my days.

The clouds eavesdropped upon us

And the sun smiled effervescently

Dropping sunshine like raindrops

On our enchanted faces

As love enveloped us, enclosed us, in it's arms.

And thus, we existed in this happy place,

This eloquent place, this place of elation,

Electric kisses and unexpected bliss

Looking forward to the expanding horizons

That predicted and predicated no earthly ending.

But alas! The unforseen arose

With storm filled skies and thunder in the air

And things that had been solid before

Seemed liquid now

Seemed to be inconstant and indefinable

No longer eternal but temporal.

For even the Earth is a temporary thing

If you think about it

Volcanoes and earthquakes can burn it to ash

And crush it to dust

Bodies can die and spirits, vacate.

But oh, the shock of losing love!

Having something seemingly solid

Turn back to ethereal wishes of the mind, 

No longer even ephemeral......

But merely evanescent, fleeting,

Like the glimpse of a rainbow in the mist

And the extinguishing of a dream

In the blink of an eye

Evanescent.

My Immortal
by Evanescence
violin cover
by Lindsey Stirling

💔

©by Voo Shining Stone

Aug 21, 2020

11:00 p.m.

Do You Believe In Life After Love?

I'm Gonna Make It Without You

All My Love Comes Down

 

  Soundtrack...Van Morrison
                 Listen To the Lion  👄

💗***************** A  V💗💗 Creation**********💗

  My My My by Johnny Gill

Sudden Kindness

Sudden Kindness

You spilled the milk! she sharply said

And I, clumsy little bit of a girl that I am

Hung my head and nodded in guilty silence

And that's all there is! she rebuked me further.

Nodding again, I felt a big tear form in my eye

Slide down my face and fall into the small white puddle

I could never do anything right no matter how hard I tried

That much had been established.

Feeling her anger, I sought to run but could not move

My bare feet were frozen to the spot

My tears, falling like rain now and blurring my vision

I did not see her moving towards me.

There, there, she said in a soothing tone

As she took me into her arms and smoothed back my hair

It's alright, it's only milk, it's not gold. We'll go buy more

And I was so surprised by her sudden kindness that I began to weep.

©by voo

July 16, 07

let that devil be

let that devil be



perpetrating storm
she lied with sunshine
flattering with a look
that belied her cold disdain


patronizing innocence
she became my heart's betrayer
falling in with clear skies
she became my drowning rain


truth was not one of her gifts
nor was it in her nature
sincerity's beguiling dance
a trap I dropped into


 red rose scent upon her skin
it hid the smell of danger
luscious lips and snake skinned hips
and dark clouds in the blue


seducing like a sideshow
in the eyes of curiosity
in the latter days of childhood
before the boy became the man


I threw my money at her feet
and entered at her bidding
left my soul at her front door
and I've not seen it again


flashing pretty darkness
the morning fled forever
redemption's promise blazed and burned
and the rays of sun were gone


swallowing me like a sugary treat
she wiped her hands and mouth
threw me in with a thousand men
and her lair became my home


perpetrating storm
she lied with sunshine
her hands of sin are never full
and now they're holding me


if you should hear her honeyed voice
don't listen to her calling
turn your ears from her sweet song
and let that devil be.


©by Voo
Sept 24, 10
2:36 a.m.

Resistance

Resistance

I almost burned my tongue when I kissed you
The heat was hotter than the noonday sun
Raising my eyes to meet yours with their brown
The color of warm, sweet honey with a twinkle of mischief
I couldn't resist the tasting
I couldn't resist the wanting
I couldn't resist the wildness
That flooded through me like a colt set loose
On a green, green field in a sun drenched month of May
But I pulled back
And hurt crept into your beautiful eyes
And puzzlement frowned at me using your face
Tossing a lock of hair off your forehead, you tilted back
Till all I could see was your chin and all I could hear
Was your sigh
Then you shrugged and hunched your shoulders
And walked away, crunching the gravel with angry shoes
Silently, I watched you go, willing you to turn back
And when you did, that sweet, sweet mouth
And those honey brown eyes
Were as cold as ice.



©by Voo
December 23, 2006
 7:30 p.m.

Shelter Me

    Shelter Me

    Shelter me, O Lord, I pray

    In the brightness of the day

    In the darkness of the night

    Say you'll never leave my sight.

    Father me when I am small

    And more so when I'm grown and tall

    For it is then, I need you most

    For grown ups oft have no one close.

    Call me when I stray too far

    Always tell me where you are

    Guide my feet back on the path

    And heal my heart with your sweet laugh.

   Teach me how to trust you more

   Walk on faith to reach the shore

   Hold my head up and not kowtow

  When Evil tries to make me bow.

 Show me how your own heart feels

 And let me know that love is real

 Let me learn to care and serve

 That love to those who don't deserve.

In your image I was made

Till sin made you fast fade away

Cleanse me from my shame and sin

And in your image, make me again.

Lord, I need you every hour

Your anointing, your great power

Let me see me through your eyes

And separate me from the lies.

For all my days and all my years

Lord, cleanse me with your righteous tears

Wash me in your Holy blood

And let your words become my food.

This I ask this very night

Take my wrongs and make them right

Let me feel safe where I may roam

And know with you, I'm always home.

I do not need this world of dirt

With all it's heaviness and hurt

It's beauty great from sea to sea

(But it's arms can never shelter me.)

And one day soon, from here I'll rise

To flee the Earth and it's blue skies

Go home to Glory, our Father's land

Forever in your presence, stand.

It can't come too soon, can't come too soon

I don't need the sun, don't need the moon

Only one thing can't be replaced:

The love that shines on your dear face.

And if I've that, I'll need no more

No bed, no table, no house, no door

And I will tell the world it's true

Lord, I don't need anything but You.

©by Voo

found partially finished on computer

finished July 18, 2014

2:20 a.m.

War of the Angels

Drums of Gaugamela

War of the Angels

War broke out in Heaven

Before and After the Cross

Hell broke in because of men

And all it seemed was lost.

Battle cries screamed through the skies

And days turned into nights

Darkened sun and blood red moon

And men cried for the Light.

Angels, angels, everywhere

Fighting to the death

Planets crashed and planets died

And men fought to draw breath.

Fluffy clouds hid monstrous things

The sea's roar swept the land

And every bit of bread and wine

Was taken from man's hand.

Hope, it seemed was gone and deemed

To be a fairy tale

The demons raised their glasses high

To toast the King of Hell.

Onward, onward, ghoul and troll

Marched through the atmosphere

Reigning terror on the Earth

And feasting on men's fear.

No light, no light could mortals find

As earthquakes split the city

Of Babylon and Bethlehem

And no one showed them pity.

Armor bright and silver gleemed

Upon the angels' breasts

And darkened foe with sword of woe

Refused to give them rest.

The fight raged on through history

Through Ages of mankind

And still today, the army holds sway

Waiting for the Sign.

The God of War, the God of Peace

They meet on heavenly ground

Their armies fight to victory win

And till then, will not stand down.

What is coming to Earth soon as told to Kevin 

          click here to watch!!! Amazing stuff. I trust Kevin Zendai            

© by Voo

Jan 10, 2005

11:00 p.m.

Dance With Me, Love

Dance With Me, Love

Dance with me love, before the dawn breaks

Before the cock crows and the neighborhood awakes

Dance with me love, on the lawn in the rain

Awaken my senses, alleviate my pain

Let me do that ballet that I did as a child

Let me tiptoe through tulips, run free and run wild

Dance with me love, while the night is still hovering

And when the sunlight is shining, I'll give you my loving

Just do this for me, this one thing, this one thing

Let me dance in your arms in the cold air of Spring

Dance with me love, in my long dress of silk

With my curls round my shoulders, soft and creamy like milk

In the moonlight that's waning as the rain gently falls

Dance with me love, while the wildness still calls.

Copyright ©2007 Voo

Classical Paintings Voo Style.....

Squaring The Circle

Squaring the Circle

He happened to me
Like a tragedy happens to some people,
Like a train wreck or a windfall,
Like good time or a bad time,
Like an incurable disease
Leading to death or remission
Or a night full  of fantasy
And a dawn of remorse;
He happened.......
He just happened.

The thing about actors is:
They don't know how to be themselves
They don't know how to love themselves
They don't know how to be vulnerable
They are afraid..........
And they avoid knowing and showing
Who they really are
By becoming other people.

Don't ask me how I know this
Stop! I said, don't  ask me how I know this!
This is my script and my biography
And my experience and my life
And the scars written here upon this page
Are my scars!
Who are  you to intrude upon my private thoughts
And ask offensive, impudent questions?
Oh, yeah..........I forgot......
I asked you to read this, didn't I?

He came in like a hurricane
And I was standing alone on the beach
Wearing my love
And with my heart all exposed
Thinking little else
Wanting little else
But to  be in his arms
With his lips pressed to mine
I was the starlet and he was the Star.

To this day I don't know what happened
One minute, all was light and love
And the next minute, darkness descended
And the perfect form before me
Became alien and terrifying
The mouth I had kissed
Twisted into an image of disdain
And the man I adored,
Someone I barely recognized.

And still..............
The memory of the man he was
Haunted my every waking thought
Followed me around like Mary's little lamb,
Jarred me awake like some insane cuckoo clock,
Flashed in my mind like a paparazzi flashbulb,
Heated my body to unbearable temperature,
And made me go cold like a dip in the Artic sea.

Who knows what makes us become
What we eventually become?
Lack of love, too much love?
An inflated big ego? No self esteem?
Not enough discipline? Way too much discipline.....?
Hating ourselves or loving unhealthily
The face that looks back from the wall to wall mirrors?

You tell me
No, wait! Don't tell me!
I'm not sure I want to know
Maybe someday........
Maybe when I'm on my deathbed
And my chest is rattling
And my eyes are dim with age
And the Reaper is standing in the corner
Waiting for my soul to come out of it's shell.....
Maybe then...........
Maybe not.

I was talking about him, not me, anyway
The him that happened to me
Back when life was new and love was an ideal
And every bird sang in it’s tree just for me
Every day was a peach to be plucked
And a sky full of rainbows,
A pocket full of four-leaf clovers
And a story that had no end.

It's all about making changes, isn't it?
New directions, new adventures, new horizons?
New frontiers, new outlooks, new chapters
And all that crap..........
Well, I certainly had my share
After him
I had more than my share,
I had more than I could stand
But I didn't have him.

I could have had him, I could!
The day came when fame and fortune found me
And the world lay at my feet like a shining pearl
The flashbulbs were popping,
The champagne was flowing,
The hands were all clapping,
And the audience was adoring........
And there he stood,
An older and wiser version of his dimmed, dazzling self.

I drew myself up in my four inch heels
Like a queen meeting a peasant,
Like a goddess on a pedestal,
And an luminary orbiting
A star that had no peer,
And I extended my hand for the obligatory kiss
And I said, And you are.....? 
I don't believe we've met.

The crushed look on his countenance
Was worth the price of admission
The way his eyes fell
And the sound his heart made
When it dashed to the ground
And shattered into a thousand tiny pieces
There before my dark-shaded and sun tanned,
Older but ever young..........
Make believe, beautiful, Hollywood face.

I  lie in the dark
And think about it sometimes
Even now, when fame has ebbed
And fortune has seen it's better days
The kisses on the hand
Are fewer and farther between
And the lovers I loved
Are no longer loved
Just articles and photos
And names on a page.

He never recovered from my rejection
He faded from fame and faded from life
Disappeared into obscurity
And off of the tongue,
Stepped out of the spotlight
So out of sight, out of mind......
Except for mine
Where his bright star still shines.

Vengeance is a hollow victory
Only a fool could celebrate
And celebrate it, I did for a few short days,
Gloating over the way I felt
When I made him feel
The way he made me feel
When he happened to me
Yeah, well, I happened to him!

Two foolish, selfish children,
Two shallow, selfish actors
We don't know who we are
Only what we were
Throwing away treasures
To run after trinkets…..
But the circle always comes back around
Doesn’t it?
Most of the time.

I was standing in the supermarket
Buying peaches and veal,
Looking for items to buy with my coupons,
And there he stood,
Looking puzzled by cantaloupes
And disgusted by carrots,
And our eyes met over the orange juice.

His eyes lit up
And his mouth smiled before he could stop it
And then he remembered
And his back straightened and he turned away
Without a word
And marched out of the store
With empty hands
The circle was squared.

I was crushed,
Tears sprang out of my eyes
And showered my tanned face
Like rain drops in April,
I had no handkerchief
And so they fell, soaking my produce
While customers stared, whispering
Well, that serves her right!

You see, they hadn’t known
About what he had done to me
Only what I had done to him
And he had their sympathy, not me
Tomorrow it would be in all the tabloids
And everyone would know my shame
But not what was buried in my heart
Buried in the sand of the shore
Of first love……………..

I was taking the groceries
Out of the car
And preparing to lug them inside
When I felt a touch on my shoulder
And I turned and it was him
I gasped, not knowing what to do
Stunned, really, to see him there
And stunned, more so, to see his smile.

I’m sorry, he said, I didn’t mean to do that
I didn’t mean to do anything to hurt you
I didn’t mean to…….
Well, I mean’t to do…..I wanted to do…..this
And  he took me in his arms
And kissed me like the first time so long ago
When love was new and a movie unscripted.

And all our pretenses fell away,
All our fake and phony importance,
All our glamour that was no glamour at all
But smoke and mirrors
Hiding the small and frightened children
That we were inside……….

We clung there together
Like the present does the past,
Our lips pressed together and our hearts pounding so,
Circles of heartbreak turning to symbols of infinity,
Beginning again a-new and at last
And forgetting everything
That had happened to us.


©By Voo
June 11, 2011
2:11 p.m.

She's But Braiding Her Hair

She's But Braiding Her Hair



I thought I saw her yesterday
Down at the park where we would lay
Under the elms and willow trees where she would run and hide and tease
And kiss me softly when she was caught and concede the battle that wasn't fought
I thought I saw her sweet face there just momentarily but a stranger stared
And I blinked my eyes and she was gone and I cried to find myself alone.

I thought I heard her musical voice
Tthough in my mind I have no choice
I hear her calling throughout my dreams that wake me to hear my own voice scream
I know she's gone, I know she's gone and left the house, taken the home
I know she's crossed to the other side and left me on this one to reside
With these sweet memories and these sweet dreams that feel so real it merely seems.

That she's still here, safe in my care
She's in front of her mirror, just braiding her hair
In the room down the hall where the moonlight is spilling
And the scent of her perfume is alluring and chilling
There, I hear her faint laughter. There, I see her hair flow
On the silk of the pillow so alive in the glow.

And I want so to love her and I want so to be
With the love of my life that was taken from me
My life is a shadow of the life we once lived so I lie to myself that I've more love to give
That at the end of the day at the top of the stair...............
She's at home, she's not gone, 
She's but braiding her hair.

 ©by Voo
   Oct 28-29, 2004
   for D 

Windows of Opaque

Windows of Opaque


Watching for me outside the realms of love,
They paced like lions in the coliseums of death
Back and forth, and back and forth, undaunted
Waiting for my appearance
And the sealing of my fate.

They had always been there
Since before my birth and even more hungrily, after
Pseudo-lions, but devils underneath
(They rip and tear with words, and claws)
And the damage is un-bearable.

When I was a tiny  thing, I thought
That I would grow to tree top height
And fight these foes like a hero in a myth
But I am grown and I'm still small
And my life goes on like this.

My room, no bigger than a box
Two windows, left and right
But so opaque I can't see out
And no sunlight can peer in
A cruel joke, would you not say, to play on a sightless Seer?

Sometimes a crack forms in the dirty glass
And I see outside for just a moment
Guards with eyes so closely set, they look like one big eye
And all around them, five pointed stars
Falling from satanic skies.

They are puppets but I am not
For I have cut my strings and now
I am only a doll in a heap on the floor
Barely remembering what it is to be human,
Barely containing a piece of a soul.

And today, again, I feel them there
Just outside this place that holds me
Keeps me safe, but keeps me prisoner
Keeps me bound to noise and chain
Like a vessel made of whispers.

This world is no longer lovely, if it ever was
It is illusion and shadow and love that is not there
I feel like a dandelion with no ground to hold onto,
No sky to cry out to, no heart to see into
And no mercy to throw myself upon.

"The prince of this world is a tireless bastard"
I heard that somewhere and I've never forgotten it
For it is true like most things are
Before they become lies that conquer hope,
For repeated long enough, the biggest lie can sound like gospel.

I have found myself a stone.........
A pebble in my shoe that grew
Into a weapon that I can hold
To beat against these panes of glass
Until they break and let me see.

I am no more safe in here than there
So why stay here? Why not just leave?
I crawl through the shattered windows, in this defiance
Holding the stone that has turned to a sword
And drop to the ground upon my shoeless feet.

My guards are amazed, they stop dead still
The lions, those demons that devour mankind,
They howl at my appearance at last,
They climb the walls to get away,
They see my crazy eyes and behold, they are afraid.

My room, the box, falls down behind me
Folds itself and disappears as though it'd never been
And as illusions shatter like a million silver mirrors,
I cry out one last time and march on bleeding feet
With my head held high, through the shards of glass
And my broken, human heart.



©by Voo
Feb 16, 2013
9:30 p.m.