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Friday, November 18, 2022

Sunday, November 13, 2022

Saboteur

 

SABOTEUR



             















            
             Saboteur

                Love is like a Trojan Horse
                It snuck silently into my life
                Under false pretenses
                On the one night I was not on guard.

                You know I speak the truth
                Deny it not     
                Those deep deep eyes
                Couldn't hide the truth if truth was just a lie.

                You think because you wear soft shoes
                That you can dance on me
                But you do an impressive pirouette,
                Don't you?

                Mockingbirds take lessons
                For you excel at mocking
                Filling the air with illusions of songs
                That are only noises.

                If I could legally exterminate
                The memory of you, would I do it?
                I lie in bed and think about that, hours on end
                Dream of revenge, even as I grovel in wanting.

                There is none so blind
                As he who will not see
                But I have looked and I have seen
                And I have looked away.

                And now I see with eyes wide open
                All the ravages you brought with you
                All the dents and damages
                You left in your wake.

                I barely recognize myself today
                In the shattered mirrors of your eyes
                So slyly does your mouth smile
                And so coldly do your fingers touch my skin.

                Yes! This is a poem for you!
                Yes! This is a song about you!
                Yes, yes, yes! This page is filled with love and hate
                The two-edged sword you cut me with.

                And all the things you make me feel
                And all the deaths you make me die,
                All the joys you crushed beneath your shoes
                In the days that followed my surrender.

                There was so much promise there
                In the beginning.............
                So much sweetness springing forth from me
                Like a fountain flowing from a rock.

                I thought you came from God
                I thought you held the stars within your hands
                And all the songs that had ever been written
                Had been composed by you.

                Saboteur! Traitor! Deceiver!
                Lover!
                How I long to take back every yesterday
                And replace them with tomorrow!

                You are a cold wind that ever blows
                And no candle I can light will keep it's glow for long
                You will not allow it.................
                You will not give me the warmth I need to survive.

                Saboteur!
                Turning hope to dust and peace to war
                Making unholy, that which was sacred in my eyes
                As my brokenness falls upon your battlefield.

                If I did not love you, it would not matter
                If I did not hate you, I could not bear this pain
                You were the traitor and I, the betrayed
                And yet it is I, who stands before the firing squad at dawn.
               
                But no more will I wear the hood and mask
                No more will I twist myself away from what is coming
                From this moment forward, when you fire that gun,
                I want you to kill me as you look in my eyes.

                You have made me into something I never was
                And the only way to change me is to kill me
                I will not beg of you but I will not run
                My hate, a shield too heavy to hold................
                Still wants to die in your arms

                Love.


                © by Voo
                Aug 2, 2011
                1:37 a.m.

Friday, November 11, 2022

COMPLETELY

 


 

Against My Will



Against My Will


Lying here trying not to think,

I think of you against my will, against my want

As though bidden by some dark pulling

That cannot be broken by force.


I seem to feel your eyes

Looking for me in the moon's light

Raking across the ceiling of your room

Willing me to look for you.


But there's no me for you to find now

My form has gone where the broken go

To the valley of trampled hearts

And misdirected dreams.


I went unwillingly,

But of necessary need

For self preservation

And fear of unanswered questions.


Oh, I still feel you, still see you faintly

Maybe not with the usual five,

(Senses that all beings have)

But with a sixth sense unusually honed.


You see, I've never been ordinary, not really

That's what drew you to me,

Led you to me, made you love me,

Bound us in unexplainable, unbreakable chains.


You needed no enchantments for that,

No candles burning at midnight,

No murmured chants, no recitations from ancient books,

No magic at all or ever.


It was love that drew us,

Led us, found us, bound us

Encircled us with her hands

And threaded us together as one.


But it was love, as well,

That broke the threads, the binding,

The defining and entwining

And put out the candles glowing in the dark.


It was love that healed and love that cut

And love that lost it's way

And yet tonight in quietest quiet

Your heart still calls to mine.


Your need has no definition,

Your wanting burns as though unquenched,

Your desire screams without a voice,

As your arms hold to my memory.


I feel you, even now

Across the miles and marbled mountains

Tossing and turning like an ocean's wave

Drawing me to you willingly, as before....

And failing that, against my will.


And failing that, against my will.



©by Voo Shining Stone

9/19/2020

Never Say

 




Never Say


Never say that word again
The word I hate to hear
When you get bent all out of shape
And give in to your fear.

You know I’m here or you should know
By now through all of this
That I would take you in my arms
And soothe you with a kiss.

And even if I cannot be
With you when you need me
I’m still there in this heart of mine
I’d think by now you’d see.

That I would give the world to you
If only it were mine
And I would make you king of it
Beside me for all time.

This world is such a lonely place
And we all need each other
And I don’t mean to overwhelm
And I don’t mean to smother.

It’s just that in my heart of hearts
I feel too much to bear
And I know you feel too much, too
But you don’t want to share.

And how that scares me, how it hurts
To be shut out from you
When all your pain calls out my name
And I can’t comfort you.

I may not be a queen to you
And far from your ideal
But I am true and I love you
And all I am is real.

Can you not feel this hand of mine
Reaching in the dark?
That fire that blazed up long ago
Is down to just a spark.

The light has gone out of the world
Cause I can’t feel your love
And you won’t speak so I must seek
The face of God above.

On your behalf, more so on mine
Because I grieve for you
Pushing me out of your life
In all you say and do.

You said to just leave you alone
You said to go away
And all the sunshine left my skies
And became a cloudy day.

And you walked off and left me there
With nothing in my hand
And shouted as you walked away
Go find yourself a man!

Like you were not the man I love
Like you were not a man
Like you saw yourself as just a grain
In a universe of sand.

And you would never be much more
No matter what you did
No matter how tall you could grow
You’d be a little kid.

I wanted so to run after you
And show you, you were wrong
To ask you how I could sing again
When you're my only song.

But I just waited till you returned
And slipped back in the door
Knowing things were not the same
The way they were before.

You do not talk but you say so much
In your silence, there’s a din
Of alibis from a heart that cries
The word I can’t hear again.

I cannot stand the word Goodbye
It tears my soul in two
You twist it in me like a knife
And make me bleed with you.

And though I bleed, I do not leave
Or run from you for cover
Because I know deep in my soul
That we could heal each other.


©by Voo




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