We Became Strangers

                                                

 We Became Strangers

If I knew the reasons

I wouldn't be writing this poem

I'd be writing love songs

And publishing them up in a tome

If I knew the wherefores

I'd be fixing them all everyday

If I knew the whys

I'd know how to make your love stay

If I knew the answers

I'd lock all the questions up tight

If I saw this day coming

I'd chain the day up in the night

But I never saw it

And I never questioned your whys

Nor conceded your wherefores

Nor answered your questions with lies

But the day is now here

And I'm watching my life walk away

And I'm begging inside

But my lips have no words left to say

I thought we were lovers

And lovers forever till death

But all of your love died

As you exhaled that love out in your breath

It is my fault, I know that now

Just like I knew it when

You asked me to be true to you

And not look at other men

But I was greedy and I was wrong

And I gave my love away

For I was lonely and I needed you

And you were always away

Then in the process of our lives

Our hearts gave up and cried

And all the sweetness of our love

Just laid down and it died

And now we're strangers just as surely

As though we'd never met

Even though our hearts still feel

And our hearts can't forget

You turn and wave and I wave back

As tears roll down my face

You board the plane and fly away

And leave a lonely place

It's cold here in our empty bed

It's cold inside of me

Why couldn't we learn as we went

Why couldn't our eyes see?

It is too late, it's just too late

I whisper to myself

We've used up all the love we had

And there is no love left

I lie and cry and hate myself

I hate what I've become

I wish I'd had more time with you

To make this house a home

But you are gone now far away

Away from heartache's dangers

And I am here to think about

How lovers became strangers

If only I......I cry out loud

Had heard when your heart would sing

But I never listened and then it stopped

And you took off your ring

Now it's too late, you've lost your song

You'll find some other ears

And she will love you like I could not

While I drown in my tears

In my confusion and my grief

I do not hear the clock

I do not hear a car door slam

I do not hear the knock

And you are there in my doorway

You've set off the alarms

But I don't care for up I fly 

And you take me in your arms

I can't leave you, you say to me

For what would this world be

If you were not here in my life

What good would living be?

My love, my love, I say to you

I pray forgive my sin

And forgive mine you say to me

And we fall in love again

This time we'll do things differently

We vow to one another

And I hear your heart sing out to me

As two strangers become new lovers

Oh, love it is a precious thing

Guard it night and day

Don't let it cry and fade and die

And don't let it walk away

Who knows if it will dare return

To the place it felt alone

Who knows if it will see it's truth

And find it's way back home

©by Voo

January 30, 2019

4:58 a.m.

What Is It?

What is It?


If love is not love
Then what is it?
How can it exist
If it's not real?

If love is not there
How can you feel it?
And what is a love
That you can't feel?

What is wanting
If you don't want it?
And needing something
That you don't need?

Why is the thing you don't need
So all powerful?
And how does it grow
If you don't plant the seed?

How does the heart decide who it loves?
Does the mind then, not play a part?
All the thoughts in the brain can't conceive
Of the emotions that live in the heart.

The heart is an entity all its own
No one can control it by will
Your mind can demand and command it
But the heart hears and goes it's way, still.

I do not want to love you
I had made no plans, you see
I didn't count on you entwining yourself
Till you became a part of me.

I didn't want to want you 
I didn't need the pain
I had hurt so much from love's cruel touch
And I didn't want to hurt again.

I really tried to run away
When that feeling did approach
I resisted everything I saw in you
That my heart needed the most.

But the heart became my master
And my mind just sighed and left
For it knew that soon my heart would break
And that I'd find myself, bereft.

And so I am and so it did
And love's wounds have cut me deep
As my heart reached out to hold onto
Something it could never keep.

You tell me love cannot be real 
In this place and space and time
Because your own heart does not feel
The love I feel with mine.

And though that might be true for you
That doesn't make it so
Not thinking, I reached my hands to love
And with the same hands, must let it go.

If this love is not love
Then what is it?
How can it exist
If it's not real?

If my love for you
Is not something that's true
Then tell me 
What is this heartbreak I feel?

You can't tell me my mind has imagined
When my mind warned me not to partake
The mind only has one thing in common
With the heart and that's both of them break.

But only love can break a heart
That thing that God gave man
And only He knows the secret to how
Love can heal that heart again.

by Voo 
July 4, 20019
12:27 a.m.
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Dancing With Your Ghost

UnMasked.......a fable

Music of the Night

Gerard Butler

UnMasked

Alas! I am undone! I said

You've snared me here within your arms

You've demanded of me and I have acquiesced

To the dangerous pull of your magnetic charms.

For your eyes have caressed me

All night as I danced

And drawn me here now 

To the thrill of romance.

Take off your mask!

You said in my ear

And I had refused

As though I couldn't hear

And my hair hid me further

As it tumbled and fell

And you grabbed me

And pulled me and I tumbled as well.

You danced me down the corridor

As the the musicians softly played

Pulled me into a room and locked the door

I do not know you, sir, I said

I was breathless, pale and frightened

But I did not want to go

I wanted to know why I wanted you

A total stranger that I did not know.

Oh, but you do! you whispered

You just don't remember yet

So many times we've played this game

And you always do forget.

For I have visited you often

In visions and in dreams

Written you sonnets and letters

And songs that you could sing.

Painted you landscapes

 And roses, it's true

And thousands of portraits

My love, all of you.

I do not know you, sir, I don't

I've never seen your face

Though there is something in your eyes, 

Your voice, that I can't place.

Take off your mask! I commanded him

But he just bowed his head

Then his eyes filled with love and more of desire

And I stared at him full of dread.

I pulled away but he pursued

Grasped me by the hand

Pulled me tight against his chest

And the battle then began

I fought to keep my dignity

Though my dignity had gone

And when his lips trailed down my neck

I froze as made of stone.

Who are you, sir? I begged of him

My head against his shoulder

My heart was racing, my blood was pumping

As he grew even bolder

I am he, he said, He, whom you love

And have for all of time 

How can that be? I asked, kissing him

And his mouth tasted good like wine.

And then I twirled and pushed him away

Ran to the fireplace and cried

You are mad! I exclaimed, You are mad and mistaken!

I do not know you, sir! You've lied!

You will see me again! he said, coming toward me

Pulled me against him, kissed me hard on the lips

And my body betrayed me and pushed in to his

And a strange thrusting motion took over my hips.

What am I doing? I cried aloud

What is this thing you've done unto me?

I know no man, nor have I kissed one!

"You are not blind but you cannot see."

He said in answer, 

Striding then toward the door

Then bowed and he left me

Alone there once more.

I waited minutes, then for an hour

I waited for what, I did not know

I collapsed in tears upon the rug

And then at last, I rose to go

The ball was ending, the sun was rising

My father's coach waited at the door

I looked around to see the stranger

But his presence was not there anymore.

Then we drove away

As darkness was dying

While the orchestra still played

In the pale morning light

I hugged myself, smiling

 As we left it behind us

And I danced to the music

 Floating there in the night.

Many days passed and long nights full of longing

Of sleeplessness, fear and my poor heartache's pain

I made inquiries to neighbors, hired private detectives

And longed  just to feel him kiss me again.

But there was nothing and no one knew about him

The handsome man with whom I'd danced

My friends were giddy and hid their laughter

And teased me about my 'great romance'.

Then one night he visited me in a dream

A dream so sweet and yet so strange

He looked so different and yet I knew him

And he held me close and spoke my name.

You are mine, he said, and always will be

Promise you'll wait till you see me again

Promise me this, that you'll remember my kiss

And give your sweet love to no other man.

And I promised him that

And I promised him always

As he touched me and kissed me

All night till the dawn.

And we couldn't hold back

As we gave in to passion

But when morning came calling

He was already gone.

I saw him no more for many a year

At no ball or hall or even in dreams

And he slipped away as my memory faded

And into realms of pure fantasy, or so it did seem..

As I grew up from girl into woman

And then to lady who should have been wed

Who wanted to share my heart with another

And share my life and share my bed.

My friends all married and moved away

Each with their dream and life and plan

My parents pushed me out into society

And bade me go, find myself a man.

But there was no one to catch my eye

No one to make my heart beat fast

I teased and taunted men I never wanted

And played love's games that never could last.

And then one day as I arrived back home

Arms full of packages from my many trips

A tall handsome stranger with deep dark eyes

Grabbed me and kissed me full upon the lips

Unhand me, sir! I shouted, fearful

My packages flying, I failed to see

Who could be so bold to assault a lady

And then he laughed and said, It's me.

That voice, that voice! I knew that voice!

Those eyes so merry and full of light

But I was confused for no stranger stood there

But the man I had loved in my dreams that dark night.

Do I know you, sir? I asked him, puzzled

Oh yes, you do! he shook his head

I danced with you at a long ago ball

But the man that I was then is long gone and dead.

How can that be? I scoffed at his fable

You are standing here talking this fine August morn!

And he sighed and he told me the strangest thing yet

For the love of you, I will always be ever reborn.

And we shared our lives and loved each other

Inseparable for many years

We had our good times and our bad times

We had our laughter and our tears.

Then one sad, sad day, I knew he was leaving

Beginning his ending to one day begin

I held to him tightly till he said, Let me go, love 

One day I promise to find your sweet face again.

©by Voo

Feb 5, 2019

1:50 a.m.

That's All I Ask of You