Seeds, Lost and Found

thunderstorm

Seeds, Lost and Found

I do not know why I was never afraid of storms
Why I longed for them, looked for them, prayed for them
Needing to feel that electrical charge in the air,
That blinding white lightning, that menacing roar
That violent thrusting of a great downpour.

Sans umbrella, I would run in the rain
Wade in the water, play in the mud
Dare the Heavens to chastise my defiance,
Fling out my arms and beg angels to dance
For no mortal would, like me, take a chance.

And so I grew from girl to woman
Always searching, always wanting
Always needing, always grieving
Always lonely with no love around
Always lost and never found.

And then I saw with eyes wide open
The strangest thing, the sweetest thing
So like a dream but not a dream
A dream come true like a fond wish granted
My tears turned to seeds and those seeds then were planted.

And I watered  them and I tended them
I cared for them like the gardener of Eden
Sometimes a seed would sprout out of the dirt
And I would watch hopefully with tears in my eye
Only to see it soon wither and die.

Disappointment was the cloak I wore
Dark with despair and disconsolate
Dangerously daring and almost past caring
I ran then from love for I could no longer take
Watching what I thought was real turn to fake.

So I pretended that I didn't care 
Played with the tigers and ran with the lions
An innocent lost in the valley of shadows
Trying so hard to be found in this world
But just a face in the crowd of lost boys and girls.

We had our fun out on the run
Defying death and loathing life
Gothic angels with bent halos
Seeking for shelter or a hole in the ground
But really, just dying to somehow be found.

And then one day after years of dying
For life had evaded and love had perished stillborn
I turned a corner  that I had never turned
And I saw the face that my soul had known
On a plant that sprang up from those tears I had sown. 

The face of a lost boy who wandered like me
Looking for something that he could never find
Standing before doors that were slammed in his face
Stinging from weapons of words to his heart
Our hands clasped as though they had not been apart.

His mouth, my mouth devoured with kisses
His eyes, my eyes would not look away from
His body, my body could not wait to make love to
His heart, my heart heard without making a sound
And this lost girl and that lost boy had finally been found.

In a world of madness, we had found our sanity
In a world of dragons, we had found our swords
In a world of darkness, we had found our light
In a world of lack filled with just empty shelves
We had found that love lived, we had found ourselves.

The lost boy and I who had both planted seeds
When we were just children and abandoned to weeds
When no love would spring up from our careful tending
Now flourished and nourished and scenting the air
He was my seed, I was his, born of dreams, standing there.





©by Voo
11/27/19
12:21 a.m.


Find Me
by Bread

THe Beast Calls (scary)

The Beast by Rhythm X Revival

The Beast Calls

The Beast Calls

The beast calls at midnight
When the moon is full and high
And I hear his mournful wailing
Like his soul's about to die.

I can hear him in my dreams
When I'm lying fast asleep
I can hear him running toward me
Up the mountain tall and steep.

I can hear his ragged breathing
Hear his panting in my ear
Hear him beg me to go with him
Though I pretend not to hear.

I can see his eyes upon me
Devouring me with lustful mouth
I can feel his teeth cut through my skin
Though the door has kept him out.

But he stands outside my window
Sending secrets to my brain
Telling me how much he loves me
And wants to be with me again.

But I cannot let him near me
I know I can't let him inside
For the man that once he had been
Is a wolf, the man has died.

But he begs me oh, so pitifully
That it breaks my loving heart
For I loved him, how I loved him
When our romance had it's start.

But the wolf girls took my lover
Took him in the full moon's glow
Kept him till he gave compliance
And they would not let him go.

So they hit him and they bit him
Changed his nature from a man
And they made him into something
That I cannot understand.

But he will not leave me here alone
He will not give me up
He tells me we'll be lovers once more
If I'll just drink of his cup.

And I tell him no time after time
I won't give in to his plea
But I do not know this very night
He has planned to deceive me.

A woman comes then to my door
Knocking softly like a friend
Smiling sweetly she asks if I 
Might be so kind to let her in.

And not thinking this could be a trick
I open up my door to her
And she pulls me out into the night
Into arms so soft like fur.

And they take me to their lair in chains
The wolfen girls that he has sent
Hold me prisoner till he comes for me
Behind iron bars that can't be bent.

I'm so frightened I can barely breathe
I can hardly stand to see
Then I feel his breath upon my face
As he puts his claws on me.

Please don't take my life away from me
My form, my face, and all I know
I beg softly to the man he was
But he shakes his great head, no.

Then I feel his sharp teeth ravage me
And I scream with all my might
I hear him say he's sorry in my mind
For the thing he does tonight.

Then he licks the blood off of my skin
Cradles me within his arms
And I drift away to deep darkness
Sheltered then from further harms.

In the morning I am still myself
As the me I know to be
 I look at my hands and feel my face
Fearing what I might soon see.

The change is slow and deadly certain
And I  can feel the savage blood
Flowing violently through my veins 
Like my sisters said it would.

And they took me from my prison
Then removed the chains from me
Gave me clothes to hide my nakedness
And they let me just go free.

I hid myself from all of nature
Hid myself from lion and loon
I hid from every living creature
But there was no hiding from the moon.

And the midnight came and took me
To the meadow bright as day
And the full moon did it's magic and
Took my human-ness away.

I became a thing I did not know
And I did not want to be
Screaming out my pain to Heaven
Then I saw him watching me.

Coming to me in the moonlight,
I saw the man turn into beast
And he howled out an invitation
To attend his ghastly hallowed feast.

And he took my hand and ran with me
Through the forests dark and green
And I saw with sight I'd never had
Things that I had never seen.

As we ran, my inhibitions fled
And I embraced what I'd become
My body changed, mind rearranged
And the forest  began to feel like home.

I could feel the joy within him
I could see love in his eyes
Finding our love had never died
Was to me a great surprise.

I never realized that creatures
Not humankind, could still feel love
Even wolves, slaves to the bidding
Of the full moon up above.

And as time passed, I so adjusted
To the life that I now led
Hiding in my human costume
With pure wolf thoughts in my head.

Longing for the lunar phases
To do their cycles and begin
To see the moon in all her fullness
And to run free once again.

©by Voo
Feb 17, 2019
8:12 a.m.

"AAooooooooooHHHHHH"

Getting Jiggy with the Kitty

Wanna Be Your Lover
by Prince

Getting Jiggy Wit It

Your New Boyfriend is Ugly

I love this guy!!!!

omg!!!

ooh baby

Crazy boy!! I met Coffey on myspace
years ago singing Gospel. He's gone so far
in his career since then. love the "cowboy thang"

Faith is Insanity

FAITH IS INSANITY

FAITH IS INSANITY IN THE EYES OF THE WORLD

AND SOMETIMES I ADMIT THAT IT'S INSANE TO ME

GOD ASKS US TO BELIEVE WHAT WE CAN'T TOUCH OR TASTE

SMELL, HEAR AND HOLD ON TO WHAT WE CAN'T SEE.

FAITH IS INSANITY WHEN YOU REASON IT OUT

THERE'S NO WAY TO EXPLAIN IT AND NO WAY TO SHOW

THE WORLD ASKS US QUESTIONS THAT WE CAN NEVER ANSWER

AND WHEN WE ASK OURSELVES, WE CONCEDE WE DON'T KNOW.

FAITH IS INSANITY TO THE LOST OF HUMANITY

THEY LOOK TO THE PHYSICAL, THE VISIBLE AND SEEN

WHILE WE LOOK AT THE INVISIBLE AND FEEL THE INTANGIBLE

AND ARE LED BY THE INDESCRIBABLE AND THE VISION AND DREAM.

FAITH IS INSANITY TO THE MIND OF THE HEATHEN

THEY DISDAIN OUR PREACHING BEFORE WE CAN START

THEY ASK US TO SHOW THEM JUST WHERE JESUS LIVES

AND THEN LAUGH WHEN WE SAY THAT HE LIVES IN OUR HEART.

AND THAT GOD WROTE THE BIBLE THROUGH THE HANDS OF THOSE MEN

AND THAT ANY DAY NOW JESUS IS COMING AGAIN

THAT GOD HEALS THE SICK AND HE MAKES THE BLIND SEE

AND THAT HE HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOU AND FOR ME.

THAT SPEAKING TO MOUNTAINS AND WALKING ON WATERS

AND LAYING UP TREASURES ON HEAVEN'S FAIR SHORE

THAT DYING IS LIVING AND SOWING IS GIVING

AND IT'S HARD FOR A RICH MAN TO GET THROUGH THAT DOOR.

THEY LAUGH AT US WHEN WE TALK LIKE THAT

SOMETIMES I LAUGH MYSELF

MY MIND SAYS "FACE REALITY, FOOL!

AND PUT THAT OLD BOOK BACK ON THE SHELF."

IT'S A FAIRY TALE, A BOOK FULL OF MYTHS

CREATED TO GIVE MANKIND HOPE

IN A DOG EAT DOG, YOU LIVE AND DIE WORLD

AND WITH THE HELL IN BETWEEN YOU JUST COPE.

FAITH IS INSANITY 'CAUSE IT SAYS, "THAT'S NOT TRUE."

THAT JESUS LIVED, DIED AND ROSE AGAIN FOR ME AND FOR YOU

THAT HE'S SOMEWHERE IN HEAVEN WATCHING US NOW

WE JUST DON'T KNOW THE "WHY" OR "WHEN" OR THE "WHICH" WAY" OR "HOW"

WE LIVE IN FAITH AND TAKE FOR GRANTED

THAT WHAT WE'VE BEEN TAUGHT IS TRUE

THE WORLD LOOKS AT US AND SAYS, "YEAH, WE'RE SINNERS

BUT AT LEAST WE'RE NOT CRAZY LIKE YOU!"

AND SOMETIMES I DO FEEL CRAZY, DON'T YOU?

I QUESTION MY HOPE AND MY FAITH

SOMETIMES THIS WALK JUST GETS SO HARD

THAT I WANT TO RUN AWAY.

TO STOP BELIEVING IN THE INTANGIBLE

IN THE UNSEEN, UNTASTED, UNHEARD

TO STOP THIS NONSENSE BEFORE I DO GO INSANE

THAT IT'S ALL BASED ON A BUNCH OF JUST "WORDS."

FAITH IS INSANITY TO MY CARNAL MIND

IT MAKES NO SENSE, THAT MUCH I KNOW

BUT IF I LOST MY FAITH AND LEFT............

WHERE WOULD I GO? WHERE WOULD I GO?

IF THERE WERE NO HEAVEN WAITING FOR ME

HOW COULD I LIVE FOR ONE MORE DAY?

IF THERE WERE NO JESUS SHINING HIS LIGHT

HOW COULD I EVER FIND MY WAY?

I HAVE TO BELIEVE THAT GOD EXISTS

I HAVE TO KEEP LOOKING FOR WHAT I CAN'T SEE

I HAVE TO KEEP MOVING TOWARD THAT INVISIBLE HEAVEN

AND BELIEVE WHEN LIFE'S OVER, THAT IT'S WAITING FOR ME.

FAITH IS INSANITY TO AN INSANE WORLD

IT'S A DRUG, A NARCOTIC TO THE LOST OF MANKIND

A CRUTCH FOR THE CRIPPLED, THE WEAK AND THE MEEK

AND TO FIND FAITH IN GOD, YOU MUST FIRST LOSE YOUR MIND.

FAITH IS A FACT THAT'S UNPROVABLE IN COURT

A DEFENSE, AN OFFENSE TO THE EGO AND BRAIN

BUT FAITH IS THE ANCHOR THAT SECURES OUR TOSSED SHIPS

ON THE OCEANS OF HOPELESSNESS IN A WORLD THAT'S INSANE.

©by Voo Shining Stone

June 27, 2002