ALL I WANT by request

All I Want

Young and ancient in my heart

I yearn to feel alive

I long to feel the touch of love

And know the reasons why

Why life is sad and days are long

Just something to get through

I need to know why I was born

And I want to know the truth

Friends? I never had a friend

At least someone I could trust

I thought I had one who loved me

But all it was was lust

My innocence was lured away

My trusting soul rejected

My emotions killed with cruel disdain

And my heart cries were neglected

All day I search the sky for God

All night I cringe in fear

My sleep is stolen by nightmares

And I feel no angel near

I walk the streets alone and cold

Even in the sunlight's glow

And laugh my bitter hardened laugh

That hides a broken soul

Too young! they tell me, you're too young

To feel like you should die

You have no reason to feel this way

To have sorrow in your eyes

But they don't know, they cannot know

How my heart longs to fly free

They see my youth, my unwrinkled brow

But I know they don't see me

I reach a halting outstretched hand

Sometimes to others when

They slap my hand and I say then

I'll never reach again

This nothingness is heavy

This emptiness is full

How can I believe that kindness lives

When all I see is cruel?

My life is like a bottomless pit

I tumble down and down

In dream and shadow, falling, hopeless

And laughing like a clown

And all I want is for someone

To fill up this widening crack

For God to reach down from the sky

And pat me on the back.

©By Voo

May 27, 2005

 11:30 pm