No Place For Me

No Place For Me


I toss and turn here in this bed
Looking for your form
I reach to feel the empty place
And my heart feels forlorn.

Why can't you be where you belong?
Why can't you be with me?
Why must you run toward other goals
That only you can see?

I try to hear and rationalize
But my heart can't understand
It only knows that I'm a woman
That needs to hold her man.

A woman, true and needing
To love as only a woman can
A woman who needs to just be needed
As only a true man can.

But you are there and I am here
And never the twain shall meet
For if they could I'd run to you
Upon my winged' feet.

This life is just a game of chance
But not even a real game
It's just a plodding day to day
The same but not the same.

They say God has a plan for us
But we don't know what's in store
And every day in every way
We find that we need more.

Because the world gives less and less
And takes what little we still hold
We trudge along without a song
As our youth gives in to old.

So when true love falls onto us
We need to grasp it tight
For wealth and fame and a well known name
Can't hold us in the night.

But you have not learned that fact yet
For you're still running for the prize
Needing everything but what
Is here right before your eyes.

And you're gone again here from my bed
Up and gone with dawn
Leaving me with empty arms
And a heart that feels alone.

I hope you make your dreams come true
And bring to pass for all to see
But in my heart I know that in the dreams you dream
That there is no place for me.

©by Voo
Sept 8. 2019
11:40 p.m.

On The Other Side of the Other Side

On The Other Side of the Other Side


Out there in the cold gray dawn
I see you in the mist
Your face so sad and vulnerable
Needing to be kissed.

I cannot bear to see it
I cannot bear to feel
And yet I do not really know
If it is false or real.

You raise your hopeful eyes to me
A tear runs down your face
You plead with me yet silently
To all your fears, erase.

And I don't know the way to go
To make you smile again
Two lovers, we, so wild and free
That started out as friends.

Then love stepped in and pulled us
Down to love's dark depths
So star-crossed, we, so love starved, we
Needed love, despaired, bereft.

And the more we loved, the more we wanted
The more it slipped our grasp
And futures bright bade us goodnight
And slipped into our past.

What good is love if it can't live
Within the present time?
What good is love if it can't exist
Outside the tortured mind?

I ache to hold you desperately
In my two arms so tight
To bid you stay here in the day
And banish the lonely night.

But wishes are only wishes
And hope is just a yen
And yearning is just a dream undreamed
Of what might have, could have been.

I see you in the mist of dawn
Your head bowed on your chest
Waiting for me to come to you
And give your soul a rest.

But here between the two of us
There stands an invisible door
'Twixt tangible and ethereal
And it won't open any more.

I've tried to break it down with tears
I've tried a hammer's pounding
But the hammer bounced back in my hand
And in my tears I just fell, drowning.

I watch you in that mirror now
There on on the other side
Waiting to see if you can find the key
To the place where I reside.

What cruel, cruel fate, the two of us
Have been assigned and yet
We're sentenced to recall the rise and fall
And the love we can't forget.

My love, I know you hear me
There on your side of this
Unhappy world where boy and girl
Were wedded with one kiss.

Then torn apart with breaking hearts
To exist in the world alone
Watching one another fade
Till the two of us are gone.





©by Voo
9/09/19
2:29 p.m.

CIRCLE

Circle

Inside a circle in the sky

I thought I heard a distant cry

I raised my head and looked around

While red stars fell upon the ground

I wondered if it could be true

And looked again and I saw you.

A being, bright and full of grace

With a smile like sunlight on your face.

You reached for me, a timid girl

And away we went into your world.

Now here we live, in love and mirth

And watch the chaos on the Earth.

You saved me from my loneliness

And from much worse, I dare to guess.

But it was me that heard your cry

Inside that circle in the sky.

No one but me, your heart has found

There with the red stars on the ground.

No one but us live here together

And we shall live here for forever.

The two of us, joined now at last

Our futures found, birthed in the past.

I bless the day I heard your cry

Inside this circle in the sky.

For if I hadn't, I would'nt be found

But lost like the red stars down there on the ground.

©By Voo Shining Stone

March 20, 2020

Your Sweetness

Your Sweetness

The sweetness of the honey comb

Belongs to you and you alone

The ribbons in the purpled sky

Draw from the flashes of your eyes

The fragrance of the love you give

It makes me long and love to live

The passion of the quickening vein

Makes me both mad and yet so sane

The wildness of the joy within

Is blessed with sacred, touched with sin

The hungry mouth, the thirsting lips

The undulating dancing hips

The feet that bring you close to me

Take you away, too far to see

And yet the tears upon my face

Your tender fingertips erase

With each new breath, resuscitate

My ebbing flow, impending fate

Give back to me the meaning of

My need to be, my life, my love

You are the maestro of every band

The world's director with your hand

The writer of each song you choose

Each line of poetry and it's muse

You are my waking and my sleep

Wading shallow to dig for deep

The discovering scientist, the conqueror, bold

The alchemist that makes the gold

The royalty upon the throne

That reigns this heart once made of stone

This heart now pliable in your care

That feels the love that wasn't there

That knows the difference of lie and true

Now that I know.... the truly you

My Atlas, lifter of my head

When once I thought all my dreams dead

The bright sunshine with taste of night

The darkness dancing with the light

The musical laugh, the mischievous hint

That rarely discloses the secret intent

But teases without mercy as you're feigning such meekness

And drowns me in love in your oceans of sweetness.

©by Voo

11/10/19

3:56 a.m.

I Dreamed I Was a Slave Girl

I Dreamed I Was a Slave Girl

I dreamed I was a slave girl

Kneeling at your feet

Occasionally you glanced at me

With a smile not sour nor sweet.

I didn't know what I should do

I didn't know how to act

I tried to give my heart to you

But you just threw it back.

I learned the slave girl dances

I was schooled in slave girl charms

I was told that if I learned to please

I would soon be in your arms.

Though you barely looked upon me

And ignored my foreign face

But if I stumbled in my duties

You would put me in my place.

Each night I danced before you

As you ate your evening meal

But I never knew if you were pleased

Your heart I could not feel.

I danced in veils of silken threads

With belly bared and taut

With bells around my ankles

And wondered what you thought.

But I was never summoned

To your palace chamber door

I tried so hard to give my best

But you never asked for more.

And then one night I threw myself

Down on my bed to sleep

And swore I cared for you no more

And no more for you would weep.

I no longer tried to catch your eye

But flirted with your brothers

Dancing far away from you

And closer to the others.

I twirled my silks around them

As I danced to beating drums

They begged for my attention

And I coyly gave them some.

I fed them grapes and poured their wine

I kissed their fevered brow

I never looked your way again

But you looked my way now.

One night you reached your royal hand

Out to summon me

But I danced away out of your reach

And darted away free.

Then later when the house was quiet

I was summoned by a slave

I told him that I could not come

And no excuse I gave.

I lay all night in darkness

Wondering my fate

They told me I would surely die

If my master, did forsake.

For a fortnight I was left alone

Not knowing what you'd do

But then one night, your servant came

Saying "He has need of you."

I bathed, perfumed and oiled myself 

Dressed in my finest silk

Adorned my body in jewels that gleamed

Against skin pale as milk.

And I let myself be led away

To your rooms by candle light

And then prostrated myself before

My master there that night.

For minutes there was no sound at all

No movement nor a word

And then you said the strangest thing

That I was not sure I'd heard.

You raised my face up to your face

And kissed my trembling hand

"You are a woman before me now

And I am just a man."

I didn't know what I should do

Or what words I should say

What trick is this, I wondered

What game is this you play?

I frowned at you and raised a brow

As you went down upon your knee

"My queen, I am your slave tonight

Feel free to command me."

My heart raced wild within my breast

I thought it was a dream

I didn't know if I should laugh

Or run away and scream.

 "I don't know..." I started

But you hushed me with a kiss

"So long, you've driven me mad and now

Look, it has come to this."

"And what is this?" I queried

"I've tried hard to bring delight."

"No game, sweet slave, true joy you gave

"Now, dance for me tonight."

And I knelt and contemplated

As your musicians gathered there

Waiting for my dance to start

As I trembled 'neath your stare.

Then a boldness came upon me

Like a tigress running wild

No more a timid slave girl

No more so meek and mild.

I danced for you with pleasure

I danced for you to see

How much I'd always loved you

Now I knew you wanted me.

Your eyes narrowed with your wanting,

Your body losing it's control

I danced till I was satisfied

That my soft hands held your soul.

And I fell down before you

As the night turned into dawn

And the candles all were melted wax

And the musicians all were gone.

Then I stood up and with my eyes

Commanded you to be

King, no more, Master, no more

But servant unto me.

And you let me lead you by the hand

To the bed of paradise

A slave girl who loved her master so......

But a Queen now in your eyes.

©By  Voo Shining Stone

11/15/19

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