Saboteur

 

SABOTEUR

             















            

             Saboteur

                Love is like a Trojan Horse

                It snuck silently into my life

                Under false pretenses

                On the one night I was not on guard.

                You know I speak the truth

                Deny it not     

                Those deep deep eyes

                Couldn't hide the truth if truth was just a lie.

                You think because you wear soft shoes

                That you can dance on me

                But you do an impressive pirouette,

                Don't you?

                Mockingbirds take lessons

                For you excel at mocking

                Filling the air with illusions of songs

                That are only noises.

                If I could legally exterminate

                The memory of you, would I do it?

                I lie in bed and think about that, hours on end

                Dream of revenge, even as I grovel in wanting.

                There is none so blind

                As he who will not see

                But I have looked and I have seen

                And I have looked away.

                And now I see with eyes wide open

                All the ravages you brought with you

                All the dents and damages

                You left in your wake.

                I barely recognize myself today

                In the shattered mirrors of your eyes

                So slyly does your mouth smile

                And so coldly do your fingers touch my skin.

                Yes! This is a poem for you!

                Yes! This is a song about you!

                Yes, yes, yes! This page is filled with love and hate

                The two-edged sword you cut me with.

                And all the things you make me feel

                And all the deaths you make me die,

                All the joys you crushed beneath your shoes

                In the days that followed my surrender.

                There was so much promise there

                In the beginning.............

                So much sweetness springing forth from me

                Like a fountain flowing from a rock.

                I thought you came from God

                I thought you held the stars within your hands

                And all the songs that had ever been written

                Had been composed by you.

                Saboteur! Traitor! Deceiver!

                Lover!

                How I long to take back every yesterday

                And replace them with tomorrow!

                You are a cold wind that ever blows

                And no candle I can light will keep it's glow for long

                You will not allow it.................

                You will not give me the warmth I need to survive.

                Saboteur!

                Turning hope to dust and peace to war

                Making unholy, that which was sacred in my eyes

                As my brokenness falls upon your battlefield.

                If I did not love you, it would not matter

                If I did not hate you, I could not bear this pain

                You were the traitor and I, the betrayed

                And yet it is I, who stands before the firing squad at dawn.

               

                But no more will I wear the hood and mask

                No more will I twist myself away from what is coming

                From this moment forward, when you fire that gun,

                I want you to kill me as you look in my eyes.

                You have made me into something I never was

                And the only way to change me is to kill me

                I will not beg of you but I will not run

                My hate, a shield too heavy to hold................

                Still wants to die in your arms

                Love.

                © by Voo

                Aug 2, 2011

                1:37 a.m.

COMPLETELY

 

 

Against My Will

Against My Will

Lying here trying not to think,

I think of you against my will, against my want

As though bidden by some dark pulling

That cannot be broken by force.

I seem to feel your eyes

Looking for me in the moon's light

Raking across the ceiling of your room

Willing me to look for you.

But there's no me for you to find now

My form has gone where the broken go

To the valley of trampled hearts

And misdirected dreams.

I went unwillingly,

But of necessary need

For self preservation

And fear of unanswered questions.

Oh, I still feel you, still see you faintly

Maybe not with the usual five,

(Senses that all beings have)

But with a sixth sense unusually honed.

You see, I've never been ordinary, not really

That's what drew you to me,

Led you to me, made you love me,

Bound us in unexplainable, unbreakable chains.

You needed no enchantments for that,

No candles burning at midnight,

No murmured chants, no recitations from ancient books,

No magic at all or ever.

It was love that drew us,

Led us, found us, bound us

Encircled us with her hands

And threaded us together as one.

But it was love, as well,

That broke the threads, the binding,

The defining and entwining

And put out the candles glowing in the dark.

It was love that healed and love that cut

And love that lost it's way

And yet tonight in quietest quiet

Your heart still calls to mine.

Your need has no definition,

Your wanting burns as though unquenched,

Your desire screams without a voice,

As your arms hold to my memory.

I feel you, even now

Across the miles and marbled mountains

Tossing and turning like an ocean's wave

Drawing me to you willingly, as before....

And failing that, against my will.

And failing that, against my will.

©by Voo Shining Stone

9/19/2020

Never Say

 

Never Say

Never say that word again

The word I hate to hear

When you get bent all out of shape

And give in to your fear.

You know I’m here or you should know

By now through all of this

That I would take you in my arms

And soothe you with a kiss.

And even if I cannot be

With you when you need me

I’m still there in this heart of mine

I’d think by now you’d see.

That I would give the world to you

If only it were mine

And I would make you king of it

Beside me for all time.

This world is such a lonely place

And we all need each other

And I don’t mean to overwhelm

And I don’t mean to smother.

It’s just that in my heart of hearts

I feel too much to bear

And I know you feel too much, too

But you don’t want to share.

And how that scares me, how it hurts

To be shut out from you

When all your pain calls out my name

And I can’t comfort you.

I may not be a queen to you

And far from your ideal

But I am true and I love you

And all I am is real.

Can you not feel this hand of mine

Reaching in the dark?

That fire that blazed up long ago

Is down to just a spark.

The light has gone out of the world

Cause I can’t feel your love

And you won’t speak so I must seek

The face of God above.

On your behalf, more so on mine

Because I grieve for you

Pushing me out of your life

In all you say and do.

You said to just leave you alone

You said to go away

And all the sunshine left my skies

And became a cloudy day.

And you walked off and left me there

With nothing in my hand

And shouted as you walked away

Go find yourself a man!

Like you were not the man I love

Like you were not a man

Like you saw yourself as just a grain

In a universe of sand.

And you would never be much more

No matter what you did

No matter how tall you could grow

You’d be a little kid.

I wanted so to run after you

And show you, you were wrong

To ask you how I could sing again

When you're my only song.

But I just waited till you returned

And slipped back in the door

Knowing things were not the same

The way they were before.

You do not talk but you say so much

In your silence, there’s a din

Of alibis from a heart that cries

The word I can’t hear again.

I cannot stand the word Goodbye

It tears my soul in two

You twist it in me like a knife

And make me bleed with you.

And though I bleed, I do not leave

Or run from you for cover

Because I know deep in my soul

That we could heal each other.

©by Voo

A Tender Lie by Restless Heart

The Same Storm In Mine

  

The Same Storm In Mine

We recognized one another

The night we met

Though we had never met before

We saw in each other's eyes

The passion we craved

The wildness that was yet to be tamed

We felt our heartbeats slow

Then race

Then synchronize together in unison

And then the madness began

The indescribable madness of true love

The true love that only comes once

We fought like lions

And made up like lambs

But oh, how we loved!

Loved like the lightning loved the darkness

Loved like the thunder loved the roar

Loved like the raindrops loved the earth

Through days of war and nights of peace

Through cries of pain and love's delight

We imprinted ourselves upon pages of poetry

And then the world ended

As all worlds, they do

Created out of myth and longing

And you flew away on your invisible wings

Leaving Earth and the boundaries of time

Waving goodbye as our tears fell like raindrops

With the storm still in your veins and the same storm in mine.

©by Voo Shining Stone

Jan 3, 2021

5:15 p.m.

Gentle Storm by Elbow

oh, my my, what a song and video!