Already There

Already There

Walking through life

We stumble sometimes

Upon unlocked doors......

And we hesitate, wondering

If we should open that door

That is standing there ajar, beckoning

For us to take a chance.

There may be danger lurking there,

There may be terrifying consequences,

Or there may be something wonderful

We never know.

And some of us will never know

Because we are too afraid to take that chance

And so we flinch and jerk back our hands,

Leave the door ajar for someone else to open.

And someone else does bravely open that door

And discovers all sorts of fantastic things waiting inside:

A new job, a home, the love of a lifetime,

The answer to a prayer, our prayer, but we were too afraid.

Afraid to try because we are scarred by rejection,

Crushed by hurt and traumatized by terror

Emotional wounds covered by scar tissue and flimsy bandages

That never healed us, only covered up our pain so no one could see it.

But we always knew it was there inside us 

Just waiting to be triggered by the next bullet,

The next blade, the next unkind word

And we've traded our kindness for anger and hidden our love in hate.

Knowing that that's not who we are or even want to be

We're just trapped in a cell of emotion,

Fallen down a well full of broken-ness

And  are imprisoned in pain that we don't know how to heal.

God didn't make us like that.............

He made us in His image and His image is love,

His heart is love and His thoughts are of love,

His kingdom is love and His bounty is love

And love is what we're all afraid of the most.

So we disrupt His plans and go running away

From every open door, every road map that falls on our path,

Every circumstance He has worked on for years 

To bless us and fix us and turn us around.

And I, am more guilty of that running than most 

Fleeing when no one pursues, no threat is discerned

No evidence is presented and no danger seems imminent

Running and running when I should give myself up.

What is it about surrender that terrifies our soul?

Why hold onto pride when it comes before every fall?

Why do we stare down and back away from a blessing?

A blessing that can heal us and bring our hope back again?

I once stumbled over a rainbow and found hidden treasures 

So many my back and my arms couldn't bear

And I fell in a well full of love never knowing

That the love I fell into was already there.

Already there, waiting for me to find it

Already there but my eyes could not see

It was already there just beyond the unlocked door

Waiting to give itself unto me.

And I tasted love and touched it's hand

I heard it's sweet voice softly say

"You've finally found the thing you wanted."

And I just screamed and ran away.

Look in my eyes, my searching friend

Into eyes of sorrow that rued my choice

I threw away my long sought joy

That called to me with tender voice.

For fear of hurt and fear of losing

I threw away the promise of

All of my dreams coming to pass

No longer pursuing, but running from love.

The irony is not lost on me

Believe me, friend, I see the jest

In what I'm saying and warning you

Love's student I was, but not the best.

But now I know and now I share

With all who'll listen and heed my call

Love hurts sometimes and love heals the hurting

So don't run from it's touch or fear the fall.

It's frightening to fall when you don't know what's waiting

And we've all reached to hearts that proved they didn't care

But when you fall in true love, love will be there to catch you

You can't fall into something that's not already there.

©By Voo

August 15, 2019

10:15 p.m.

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