WHAT IS IT?

What is It?


If love is not love
Then what is it?
How can it exist
If it's not real?

If love is not there
How can you feel it?
And what is a love
That you can't feel?

What is wanting
If you don't want it?
And needing something
That you don't need?

Why is the thing you don't need
So all powerful?
And how does it grow
If you don't plant the seed?

How does the heart decide who it loves?
Does the mind then, not play a part?
All of the thoughts in the brain can't conceive
Of the emotions that live in the heart.

The heart is an entity all of it's own
No one can control it by will
Your mind can demand and command it
But the heart hears and goes it's way, still.

I do not want to love you
I had made no plans, you see
I didn't count on you entwining yourself
Till you became a part of me.

I didn't want to want you 
I didn't need the pain
I had hurt so much from love's cruel touch
And I didn't want to hurt again.

I really tried to run away
When that feeling did approach
I resisted everything I saw in you
That my lonely heart needed the most.

But the heart became my master
And my mind just sighed and left
For it knew that soon my heart would break
And that I'd find myself, bereft.

And so I am and so it did
And love's wounds have cut me deep
As my heart reached out to hold onto
Something it could never keep.

You tell me love cannot be real 
In this place and space and time
Because your own heart does not feel
The love I feel with mine.

And though that might be true for you
That doesn't make it so
Not thinking, I reached my hands to love
And with the same hands, must let it go.

If this love is not love
Then what is it?
How can it exist
If it's not real?

If my love for you
Is not something that's true
Then tell me, what is this heartbreak
I feel?

You can't tell me my mind has imagined
When my mind warned me not to partake
My mind only has one thing in common
With the heart and that's both of them break.

But only love can break a heart
That thing that God gave man
And only He knows the secret to how
Love can heal that heart again.

©by Voo
July 4, 20019
12:27 a.m.
Independence Day

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Only Love



Only Love


Only Love

JUST WANNA BE

me at 6 mos

me @ 3

me@15

Just Wanna Be

When I was a baby

I wanted to be a tot

When I was a toddler

I saw what I had not.

When I was a big kid

I wanted to be a teen

But then I just wanted to be grown up

Do you see now what I mean?

I always wanted to be me

But an older, wiser version

And when I'd played around with love

I wished I was still a virgin.

When I was a woman

I wanted yet to be a girl

But the girl I'd been wanting so to be

A woman in this world.

I never wanted to be old

But live young and wild and free

I wanted life on my own terms

But a younger, wiser me.

I can't be sure just what I want

In living day to day 

But it's so true, I'm telling you

I've always been this way.

I want what I cannot obtain

I loathe the things I own

I need to have what I cannot have

And I want my old things gone.

Oh, I've worked hard for what I've got

Of that, make no mistake

And I have more than my fair share

And what I've got is great.

But here I find myself back there

At indecision's door

I've got too much stuff on my plate

But I think I still need more.

Sure, I collect my favorite things

I have my expensive tastes

I like the luxuries of life

But I let them go to waste.

........sigh......

What should I do, I ask of you?

What would you say to me?

For your opinion is all I want

And your happiness to see.

You see, I am a mixed up girl

I have been all my days

I've gathered things I had to have

And then just walked away.

But there's one thing I must tell you

And it's certain, not a maybe

I said all that to just say this...

I just wanna be your baby.

©by VooVoo

June 18, 2019

10:10 p.m.

me at 19

me now

you'll always be
my baby
by Felix

THE SILENT DARK

soundtrack

The Silent Dark

The silent dark calls my name

Without words, in whispers

That caress like a hundred feathers

Silky and teasingly 

In the hands of a lover who lives

To indulge himself in the taunting of my flesh.

It is too dark to see the face of he

Whom my soul loves

But I know he is there, waiting

For my eyes to catch the glimmer of his own

And run barefoot through cool wet grass

To enter the shelter of his arms.

It is in darkness that he resides

In darkness that he dwells alone

Chanting my name like a holy man

Hidden away in a sacred place that only he knows.

I cannot hear him in the morning

Nor at noon time when the sun is high

And life revolves like the Earth does

In it's never ending orbital dance.

It is at midnight, in the silent dark

That the call rings like a bell in my ears

And quickens the beating of my heart

Like the pounding of a horse's hooves.

I cannot see the path but I find my way

Led by love and the glow of his heart

That only I can see there in his chest

His aura shining like an angel's borrowed halo.

As his arms close 'round me, I sigh, content

And the darkness enfolds us like a blanket

And covers and shields us from prying eyes

Eyes who seek to take what is not theirs to take.

It is only then, within arms entwined

That we feel safe and complete, whole

Like a puzzle seeking for missing pieces

And finding those pieces at last.

The silence is as beautiful as the darkness

A song in and of itself

To be sung by the chosen few who know of it's treasures

Who dare to explore without light the depth of it's delights.

We are creatures of the night, my love and I

And we love what we find there

We fear nothing except to be apart, knowing that cannot be

For we are one in every fiber of our beings, counterparts.

The voice of darkness bids us come and we obey

Running like children down paths that protect

And silver streets that no eyes see but ours

It is our world, our place, our home.

When morning comes, we slip back into shadow

And we wait until the first star blinks on in the sky

It is our alarm clock, our inkling that another night approaches

And in anticipation, we listen for the call to come

From beyond the silent dark.

©by Voo

June 18, 2019

6 a.m.