Who I Am

Who I Am


You make me feel like I need to apologize
For being alive
For existing on your plane so different from mine
So far above, or below
I never quite know
I only know that when you look at me
You don’t even know who I am.

You make me feel like a sideshow freak
Standing there within a solitary floodlight
Under the scrutiny of your criticizing eyes
Listening for things that I have not said,
Looking for things that will never appear,
Hunting for things that will never be found
And unable to hear what my heart has just spoken.

What makes us so different, you and I?
I crave peace, and you need war
I love laughter and you like the thunder
Of your own voice
Always debating, always berating,
Always arguing
Looking for offenses when I offer my wisdom.

Can you just not see what’s in front of your face?
How soft my touch is?
How sweet my smile?
How great is my love and how empty my heart?
I was born to care and I care so much
Yet I lie down with broken-ness
And I rise up with pain.

I am a child that has never known true love
And yet it flows from me like a dammed up river
Looking for dry fields to water and nourish
I am father-less and mother-less,
Child-less and friend-less
An innocent in a cold, jaded world
Ever waiting with hopeful eyes and tears about to fall.

How I love beauty!
And books full of romance,
Elegance and grace and soft, tender words,
Poetry and art and the music of Heaven,
Family ’round the table and the silver of rain,
Hands reaching to heal, not pushing away,
The giggles of babies and the smiles of a friend.

I would give you the shirt off my back if you needed it
I would cook you the biggest banquet you ever saw
And go hungry myself
I would slave on my hands and my knees in hard labor
If it meant that you wanted for nothing
And you know that I would, for I have, and I can
For that is who I am.

One day you will come to me, for the joy of my humor,
For the warmth of my face, and the glow of my hearth
Ask for the gifts and the time always waiting,
Run to the comfort that I’ve offered in vain,
Call out my name in rooms full of your pictures
(My illusions of love)
But I will not be there.

Look at me!
See me
Listen to me, know me
For I am worth knowing
I will not apologize for who I am
For who I am
Has made you who you are.

©by Voo
November 30, 2009
3:02 a.m.

Crazy 'Bout Doo Wop

I Only Have Eyes for You
by the Flamingos

Since I Don't Have You
by Skyliners

Raining In My Heart
by Slim Harpo

Only You
by The Platters
my favorite

Stand By Me

by Ben E. King

For Your Precious Love
by Jerry Butler

If I Should Fall Behind
by Dion and Belmonts
love this song!!

Ode To Women

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           
ODE TO WOMEN



ENTWINED AROUND AN APPLE TREE
SATAN SAID TO EVE:
"WOULDST THOU LIKE AN APPLE
FROM MY GOLDEN APPLE TREE?"

AND EVER SINCE THE APPLE
WOMANKIND HAS BEEN
BLAMED FOR ALL CALAMITIES
AND EVERY KIND OF SIN.

WHENEVER WE MAKE SMALL MISTAKES
IT'S TAKEN AS AN OMEN
MEN ALL SHAKE THEIR HEADS AND SAY
"NOW, THAT'S JUST LIKE A WOMAN."

AND MEN BELIEVE THAT WE CONCEIVE
CHILDREN JUST BY WISHING
'CAUSE THEY ALL SAY THAT MEN HAD RATHER
BE OFF SOMEWHERE FISHING.

HURRICANES AND SHIPS AND STORMS
ARE CALLED BY FEMALE NAMES
BECAUSE WE ARE SO WILD, THEY SAY
AND DIFFICULT TO TAME.

EVERY TIME YOU STUMBLE ON
A DRUNKARD BY THE WAY
HE'LL TELL YOU 'TWAS A WOMAN
THAT TURNED HIM OUT THAT WAY.

WOMEN MAKE MEN DRINK, THEY SAY
AND GAMBLE, STEAL AND DIE
WOMEN BREAK THEIR HEARTS OF GOLD
AND NEVER EVEN SIGH.

WHEN A BAD BOY GOES TO PRISON
WITH ALL HIS CRIMINAL BROTHERS
HE'S SURE TO SAY WHEN ASKED IN PITY
"IT STARTED WITH MY MOTHER."

POOR WOMANKIND HAS BEEN THROUGH MUCH
SINCE EVE PUT US IN PRISON
BUT AT LEAST SHE HAD THE GUMPTION
TO MAKE THE FIRST DECISION.

THE FEMALE IS THE STRONGER SEX
AND I PROVE MY STATEMENT'S WORTH:
IF MEN WERE MEANT TO BEAR THE CHILDREN
THERE'D BE NO LIFE ON EARTH!

WHAT WOULD MEN DO WITHOUT WOMEN
THOUGH THEY DISDAIN US WITH SCORN
DO NOT THEY REALIZE WE ARE ROSES
AND THEY ARE ONLY THORNS?

OF COURSE, WE NEED OUR COUNTERPARTS
DON'T MISUNDERSTAND THIS SONG
AND WE'LL COMFORT, LOVE AND KEEP THEM
(TILL SOMETHING BETTER COMES ALONG.)

©by Voo
when I was a teenager
and just found