Just Wanna Be

 

me @ 6 mos

me @3

me @15

me @19

Just Wanna Be

When I was a baby

I wanted to be a tot

When I was a toddler

I saw that I did not.

When I was a big kid

I wanted to be a teen

But then I just wanted to be grown up

Do you see now what I mean?

I always wanted to be me

But an older, wiser version

And then I played the games of love

Fighting hard to stay a virgin.

When I was a woman

I wanted yet to be a girl

But the girl I'd been wanting so to be

A woman of the world.

I never wanted to be old

But live young and wild and free

I wanted life on my own terms

But a younger, wiser me.

I can't be sure just what I want

In living day to day 

But it's so true, I'm telling you

I've always been this way.

I want what I cannot obtain

I loathe the things I own

I need to have what I cannot have

And I want my old things gone.

Oh, I've worked hard for what I've got

Of that, make no mistake

And I have more than my fair share

And what I've got is great.

But here I find myself back there

At indecision's door

I've got too much stuff on my plate

But I think I still need more.

Sure, I collect my favorite things

I have my expensive tastes

I like the luxuries of life

But I let them go to waste.

........sigh......

What should I do, I ask of you?

What would you say to me?

For your opinion is all I want

And your happiness to see.

You see, I am a mixed up girl

I have been all my days

I've gathered things I had to have

And then just walked away.

But there's one thing I must tell you

And it's certain, not a maybe

I said all that to just say this...

I just wanna be your baby.

©by VooVoo

June 18, 2019

10:10 p..m.