Only When You're Gone

Only When You're Gone

Only when you're gone I flee to shadow

Run with your ghost that beckons me at night

Down into bed then laughs up into my face

And lies to me that love will hold me tight.

Only when you're gone am I my boldest

Though I cling to memories that never came to pass

Dreams that pull me down into their passions

Make me blaze with lust that does not last.

Only when you're gone do I give in to 

Weaknesses of needs I have for you

Holding onto hands that will not hold me

Taunting me with lies that can't be true.

My wanting you, it takes away my vowing

To stand my ground when my desire is strong

But you know I know I want you when you're with me

But not as much as when I know you're gone.

Only when you're gone do I burn like I'm fire

Blazing up with love that can't be quenched

For when your body's here you forbid my touches

And all my tears just keep the fires drenched.

Why must you torment me so, my best beloved?

Why do you callously reject my heart?

You throw out crumbs to me to make me follow

And when I'm near to you. you stand apart.

Only when you're gone, I call your name now

Cry my bitter tears into my hand

For you tease me with the taste and then withhold it

Break my heart in ways I cannot understand.

Only when you're gone do I have the freedom

To love you like I want to love you now

To pretend you love me back with love that's certain

Love I make myself believe somehow.

Only when you're gone do I feel cherished

Believing every lie I tell myself

So foolishly I hold onto your spirit

That loves me when the flesh and bone has left.

Are you a man or are you, my love, a devil?

Appearing just to drop me to my knees?

Conjuring false images to tease me

Just to laugh at me and all my pleas?

I no longer know, I no longer walk in sunlight

I've been this helpless thing for oh, so long

Living in this fantasy of shadows

Where I am loved but only when you're gone.

by Voo

Just now

Aug 25, 2019

3:44 a.m.

in a fit of madness

Sometimes In The Morning

Sometimes In The Morning

Sometimes in the morning

While the sun is still in bed

I lie and watch dream figments play

On the big screen in my head.

Sometimes in the morning

When the day begins to fall

I lie and watch the shadows dance

On the blank spots on the wall.

Sometimes in the morning

When I don't want to rise and shine

I think of you and your sweet smile

And wish that you were mine.

Sometimes in the morning

When the night is slowly dying

I wonder why I love you so

Without my heart even trying.

Sometimes in the morning

I crave your tender touch

And I put my arms around myself

But boy, that don't help much.

Sometimes in the morning

Before the alarm clock starts to scream

I  make myself fall back to sleep

To finish my unfinished dream.

Sometimes in the morning

I just lie there till it's gone

And waste the day thinking of you

Till the lonely night comes on.

And nights, they are the hardest

With no one to hold you near

I just lay there till the sun shows up

And wishing you were here.

Some time in the morning

On some day I can't foresee

I'm going to find you and make you come

Stay in this bed with me.

And we can watch the world go by

And the moon and sun above

Will come and go but we won't know

For we'll  be lost in love.

Sometimes in the morning

I think that's what I'll do 

Cause I'm so tired of lying here

Just dreaming about you.

If I Had You

©by Voo

Aug 29, 2019

4:48 a.m.

copyrighted

No Place For Me

No Place For Me


I toss and turn here in this bed
Looking for your form
I reach to feel the empty place
And my heart feels forlorn.

Why can't you be where you belong?
Why can't you be with me?
Why must you run toward other goals
That only you can see?

I try to hear and rationalize
But my heart can't understand
It only knows that I'm a woman
That needs to hold her man.

A woman, true and needing
To love as only a woman can
A woman who needs to just be needed
As only a true man can.

But you are there and I am here
And never the twain shall meet
For if they could I'd run to you
Upon my winged' feet.

This life is just a game of chance
But not even a real game
It's just a plodding day to day
The same but not the same.

They say God has a plan for us
But we don't know what's in store
And every day in every way
We find that we need more.

Because the world gives less and less
And takes what little we still hold
We trudge along without a song
As our youth gives in to old.

So when true love falls onto us
We need to grasp it tight
For wealth and fame and a well known name
Can't hold us in the night.

But you have not learned that fact yet
For you're still running for the prize
Needing everything but what
Is here right before your eyes.

And you're gone again here from my bed
Up and gone with dawn
Leaving me with empty arms
And a heart that feels alone.

I hope you make your dreams come true
And bring to pass for all to see
But in my heart I know that in the dreams you dream
That there is no place for me.

©by Voo
Sept 8. 2019
11:40 p.m.