Calling Your Name
(I stood alone calling your name
The clouds hid the sunlight and made way for the rain
Your name echoed back off the hills unto me
And my sad lonely shadow was all I could see.)
I'd sought you all of my life
Since I was but a child
I knew you were out there in the world
Somewhere in the wild.
For my dreams gave me glimpses
That my eyes couldn't see
And I knew that you existed
And were looking for me.
But my life took it's turns
Just as all lives, they do
And it distanced and detoured me
From the finding of you.
I met other lovers
I married and left
Two lovers who broke me
And left me bereft.
And I gave up on love
I gave up on life
For who needs a love
That's imprisoned in strife?
But my dreams never left me
They stayed buried, asleep
Laying stagnant and hidden
In my heart, oh, so deep.
And one day to my surprise
To my shock and my awe
My dreams were revived
By the face that I saw.
And the face was your face
A face I had known
In a dream, in a place
In a world of our own.
Where we walked hand in hand
As we walked through the world
Watching ages pass by us
As our dream lives unfurled.
Oh, and we were so happy
To just be we two
For I knew you loved me
And how much I loved you.
And I was your love
And you were my sweet boy
And our days and our nights
Were filled with pure joy.
But what we didn't know
Till much passage of time
That only in that dream world
Could you really be mine.
Till the Fates co-conspired
With the Heavenly plan
And allowed this sad woman
To once again find that man.
We had always had hope
That someday, and somehow
Our two dreams would collide
In the here and the now.
And they did in the last place
That we ever had thought
Stumbling there upon the one thing
That we always had sought.
What a mystery and joy!
What a sweetness divine
For my heart still was yours
And your heart was still mine.
And our souls meshed together
And our bodies belonged
Just as sure as a melody
With the words of a song.
But what cruel turn of fate
Like the changing of weather
Once again we are parted
And cannot be together.
And I call out your name
Like a prayer on the wind
Wondering how long it will be
Till I'm with you again.
For even a dream
Will eventually die
And the reflection of your face
Will fade from my eye.
But my heart won't forget
When I take my last breath
That it loves you with a love
That is stronger than death.
I'm calling your name again now
My sweet boy, my dear
Hoping this time you'll answer
And say Yes love, I'm here.
Oct 7, 2019
12:16 a.m.
