How Long Does It Take?

 

How Long Does It Take?

How long does it take to stop loving somebody?

How long does it take to stop wanting someone?

How long till it stops feeling like you are homeless

When you've lost that sweet heart that so long felt like home?

How long till the nights stop being eons of time?

And the days are long days that you wish would just end?

How long till it seems that your hopes and your dreams

Didn't die with the love in the eyes of your friend?

How long till the hurt doesn't hurt anymore?

For you no longer feel and you no longer care

And the sorrow and wrath and the pain makes a path

To the darkness that grabs you when there's nobody there?

I don't know all these answers, I cannot comprehend

What the world and it's schemes do to a woman and man

I have tried to decipher, I have tried to make sense

How one soul becomes two when one soul builds a fence.

Why can we not perceive when the devil comes creeping?

Why can we not see how he delights in love's death?

Why do we fight with each other, our true loves, our lovers

Instead of fighting that devil with our last living breath?

How long, oh my Lord, will this battle keep raging?

How long till the sun shines and never goes dark?

How long till we know we can trust one another

And not just trust one another to break each other's heart?

I have crawled back into my old shell of heartache

Where there is no sunshine and no drop of rain

Down to the desert of despaired desolation

Where the fantasy is pleasure and reality's pain.  

How long will it be till I feel whole again?

How long till the world seems a safe place to live?

How long till I've taken all my soul can take

And my soul is refilled and has more love to give?

I do not love the nights now

 I do not love the day

The nights when our hearts would softly whisper 

 And love would come to play.

I do not love the dawning

 The joy that day would bring

I cannot hear the music now

I can't make my heart sing.

How long does it take to live again 

And for a human heart to heal?

How long till those fantasies all fade away

Replaced by something real?

If no answer comes for me and no counsellor I find

If no angel comes down with a miracle and sign

If I was just foolish, perceiving no end or start

May all my records show that I lived even though

And I loved with all of my heart.

©By Voo Shining Stone

May 2020

written in a dream

and found today scribbled

on a piece of tear stained paper