NEED YOUR LOVE SO BAD

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Need Your Love So Bad

She's sitting at the bar alone

Her hand around a glass

Looking like a movie star

With elegance and class.

She doesn't see me watching

Or if she does, ignores

My hungry stare at her lips, her hair

And wanting to see more.

That red dress fits her contours

Like she was poured in it

Those legs, they take my breath away

And give my loins a fit.

I finish off my white wine

And order something else

That white wine isn't cutting it

So keep it on the shelf.

Bring me some good Crown Royal

Maybe a Sloe Gin Fizz

I've to get my courage up

I've got to finish this.

Look at all that long black hair

Look at those big brown eyes

Look at those luscious sweet red lips

And at those creamy thighs.

I didn't know when I walked in

This little bar tonight

That I would lose my heart and soul

To that girl that shines so bright.

She shifts around now in her seat

And quickly looks around

The band is gearing up to play

That smokey bluesy sound.

I down my drink, get to my feet

And saunter toward the bar

But other soldiers beat me there

Like they're engaged in war.

She looks at them with discerning eyes

And smiles a smile so sweet

Nods at one fine sharp dressed man

And gets then to her feet.

I watch her as she walks with him

Up to the dim dance floor

And they engage in a dance so hot

It melts that barroom floor.

I can't believe my loveless eyes

As I move back to my chair

I had no chance to have that dance

What was I doing there?

Look at the way she moves her hips

How she tosses her hair around

How she licks her lips and her fingertips

On his back, run up and down.

He tries to make a move on her

As his hands slide down her back

Down to her hips and she parts her lips

And stops him in his tracks.

"Uh-uh!" she says  and points her finger

Into his startled face

And no matter what he tries to do

She puts him in his place.

I am so pleased at what I see

And I hide my face and smile

I  like the way she handles him

I like her sense and style.

I wonder if she'll do the same

To me if I get fresh

i wonder if I'll get a turn

And who will be her next.

But it's not me, that much is sure

So i settle back to learn

What i might use to turn her head

And make that sweet thing burn.

My body turns to traitor

And soon i lose control

All night i watch her dancing there

While i seek to reach my goal.

She walks by me back to the back

And I want so much to follow

But I can't move my frozen feet

Or lift my glass to swallow.

Her perfume fills my nostrils

With a fragrance  oh, so rare

And I breathe her in deep in my lungs

As her perfume lingers there.

I pay the band to play my song

Perhaps they'll dedicate

It just to her from the man in black

And I can hardly wait.

My heart beats like a school boy's

My chance, it comes at last

They dedicate the song to her

And I hear her gasp.

She turns to look in my direction

And I raise my glass and wink

And she looks away like i wasn't there

And my poor heart starts to sink.

I need your love so bad, girl

The blues man sings it loud

Give it up! he growls at her

With approval from the crowd.

And I sit in hope and fear of failure

Looking at that frame so fine

Wishing i could win her heart

Wishing she was mine.

She flirts with some tall rich tycoon

She laughs a silky laugh

She lets him kiss her lovely throat

And my heart tears in half.

I cannot stand the torture

I cannot stand the fear

I wonder how i'll walk away

And why I came in here.

That goddess is out of my league

What made me think I'd win

She is the kind that can take her time

And her pick of all the men.

I'm just a no one, no one needs

I have not much to give

But how i'd love to have her be

The reason that I live.

i watch her slip off her red shoes

And rub her tender feet

She sighs a sigh that makes me cry

Hell, even her sigh is sweet!

I'd love to have her in my arms

My car, my room, my bed

I'd kiss her from her dancing toes

To the top of her sexy head.

I'd pour my love out on that girl

I'd make her feel so nice

But who am I fooling, that girl won't even

Look at this mad man twice!

I pay my tab and get to my feet

I won't allow myself to look

For I know the crowd is hovering there

And reading her like a book.

I feel so lonely and defeated

As I stumble to the door

Walk out into the cold night air

Not caring any more.

I find my car in the parking lot

The old one bent and blue

And my eyes behold a sight that i

Cannot believe is true.

She's leaning there upon the car

As plain as plain can be

And she says, No, I will not come with you

But you're going home with me.

i pinch myself to see if I'm dead 

I don't believe the state I'm in

She leads me round my car and opens

The door to a Mercedes Benz.

We drive up in the movie star hills

Up to a steel gray gate

It opens with her secret code

And man, I feel so great.

She kisses me upon the lips

And pulls me to her arms

And I give in to sex and sin

Fall victim to her charms.

You're the man for me, she whispers low

I've prayed to God above

To send me someone just like you

Man, I've got to have your love.

And the blues song fills the cold night air

As cold champagne fills my cup

And I reach to take my fill of her....

And, oh damn, then I wake up!!!!

©by the very bad Voo

June 9, 2019

2:58 p.m.

Warriors of The Way Episode 2

WARRIORS OF THE WAY

EPISODE TWO

THE DARK SIDE


          I don't know how long I lay there resting my head on my dead horse. I had fallen asleep and gone tumbling down into a mindless, restless realm populated by running horses and children, golden vipers and strange men in white hooded robes. I awoke to find the world still there and Starshine, a lifeless form with no sign of his equine spirit and wisdom. I was totally disheartened. I lay aside all of the equipment that he had carried for us and pondered what pieces I could carry myself and discarded the rest. I could see no way to bury my faithful friend outside of digging his grave with my bare hands and I had no strength for that. I formulated a plan to cover him with stones and began the task to do that, a long and tedious chore that took many hours.

 As I looked for stones and carried them, I let myself go to places I should not have gone to in my mind but nevertheless, I could not stop the going. I had experienced many things in my life: death and life, illness and miracle, joy and hope delayed. But being strong of spirit and sure of my calling, I had endured and grown stronger with each setback. I was my Father's daughter. I was independent but totally devoted to him and to doing his will. My course had been set at birth and I had never deviated from that course except during the long months of my sickness. And even that had been ordained to ensure the quietness of my youthful spirit and the teaching of my soul and mind that could not have been achieved had I been awake and well.


     But this! This, I could not bear. I had been promised that Starshine would be with me until I did not need him and I could not imagine a future in which that day would occur. He had always been there. His face would appear at my window every morning when I awoke as a child. He would call and laugh his almost human laugh and I would fling myself up and over his neck still in my nightclothes and off we would fly through the courtyard until my Father's servants would scold us into stopping.

 The chickens would screech and scatter, fruit baskets would overturn and children would scream in laughter and cheer us on. Those were my earliest memories and my happiest times. Having no brothers or sisters and never having known my mother, Starshine had been my closest companion. And now he was dead. Murdered. By a creature not of this world. That much was certain. 

Having journeyed throughout the land for many years, I had seen and known and touched and experienced almost everything that the wild world had to offer and in no place and time had I ever seen a viper such as the one that had struck down my horse. The thought of the thing made the blood boil in my veins, made my hands turn into fists, made my heart give way to hate. The thing my Father had warned me about.Hate. The one thing that could destroy love, he said. Never hate, he warned me. Love only and live peacefully with all things, if that be possible. And having said that, he trained me in every type of warfare and fighting mode and skilled me with sword and bow and dagger and cunning strategy. 

     But now all his teaching dissolved in me as I explored this new emotion and let it turn me in it's tide. As I covered the still form in a mound of stones and hid it with branches, I wondered what I might do now that I had no one to talk to and no one to help me bear the burdens. Until this day, I had ever looked forward to tomorrow and hardly known a confusion or misdirection or loss of insight. My life now seemed like a blank slate, cleared of all mission and purpose.

 I completed the task of hiding Starshine's body and picked up the items I thought most needed and started down the hill, refusing to look back. For the first time in my life, I could not connect with Starshine's thoughts in my mind and I could not feel his spirit walking with me. He was gone and I was abandoned and that's all I knew. 

                                      

     

    I walked for miles until I came to a brook flowing with crystal waters and shaded by willow trees and gray boulders and hanging full of berries and strange fruit. I had no appetite but drank gratefully of the water and lay exhausted upon the soft grass staring into the changing sky, my face darkening with sun and anger. Then I began to question. And I began to twist within my mind all of the promises that had been made to me and I began to doubt. And with the doubt, I began to lose all sense of direction and with that, last of all, I began to lose hope.

continued in Episode 3

https://bluevineyard.blogspot.com/2019/08/warriors-of-way-episode-3.html

PEOPLE MADE OF LOVE

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People Made of Love

I sit here waiting for the man that I love

The stars are shining in the night skies above

The moon is hanging just over the hill

And all of the world is silent and still.

My love throbs inside me like the beat of a drum

Waiting for him and the moment to come

When my eyes fall upon him and his eyes meet mine

And he kisses my mouth with his own, sweet as wine.

These are moments I cherish

These are moments of bliss

His dark eyes full of passion,

His mouth burning kiss.

I will wait for his shadow to fall upon me

I will wait for his eyes to acknowledge and see

I will wait for his hunger as hungry as mine

To make it's need known, to show me it's sign.

And there in the darkness when the whole world is still

I will give myself to him, I will bend to his will

I will stand there before him with my candle and spark

And we'll love like before and we'll dance in the dark.

He's a phantom and ghost

He's a thief in the night

He's a mythical man

That only lives in my sight.

I conjured him up one night in my mind

And I created him from my own special design

And I loved him to life with my need and my want

And gave him my heart to dwell in and haunt.

And he lives there in shadow, a spectre and myth

The man that I long for and want to be with

Just a thought in my brain that I breathed into form

That took on flesh and blood with no need to be born.

They might say I am mad

And they may rightly think so

But the man that I made out of love

Doesn't know.

He's as real as I am

And I will always be

But what only I know

Is that my lover made me.

He made me of dreams and wishes and wants

And gave me his own heart to dwell in and haunt

And we met in the darkness when the full moon was bright

And we clung to each other and we danced in the night.

And when morning had come with it's bright yellow sun

The night fled away and we two turned to run

For we couldn't exist in the exposure of day

And we held hands there tightly as we faded away.

 But we met soon again

When the white moon was full

And the forces of wanting

With their pleasure and pull.

Drew us back to the yearning

And to love's glowing spark

To take form out of shadow

And to dance in the dark.

I don't know if forever is a word meant for us

We who don't know of breathing or heart beat or pulse

We are creatures of dreams, substantial enough

To take form for short moments

Though we're made out of love.

People made out of love

And magic and dream

Not made like mere mortals

Who are just what they seem.

We are haunting and haunted

And we know of none else

I am created by him

And he sprang from myself.

And now I sit here waiting for the man that I love

Again to appear with the full moon above

The passing of time is a blade that cuts sharp

For people like us that exist in the dark.

We didn't learn how to hold back the time

I just wanted his love and he wanted mine

So we conjured and created but something went wrong

And our moments are magic but they do not last long.

Perhaps one day we'll learn that trick

From magicians who are much more clever

And my love and I can live and love

And dance here in the dark forever........................

©by Voo

June 3, 2019

10:56 p.m.

SHATTERED

S h a t t e r e d

I never knew you were made of glass

Until today.........

I thought you were made of steel and iron

And could take on a lion or a bear

Until today..............

 I never knew what  a rose petal I was

Until today....................

I thought I was the strongest  woman in the world

And could stand and fight with the baddest of the bad

Until today.......................

But today I saw myself being carried away by wind

Unable to stop myself from floating and flying

Not of my own accord but by someone else's

And I was terrified..................

Floating, floating, there on the wind like a rose petal

Trying to hold onto anything I could grab

But there was nothing to grab onto.

And I just kept rushing away carried by that angry wind

All the time watching you standing on a distant shore

Watching me watching you

There were tears in my eyes at the thought that I was losing you

At the thought that I would never see your face again

And yet at the same time, you seemed like a perfect stranger to me

And someone that I didn't even know and never had.

I watched you climb a mountain then that appeared on the shore

And you stood on that mountain as you watched me

Being carried away by the wind,

And you screamed out my name, once, and you jumped

You jumped off the mountain top as I watched helplessly

And you shattered into a hundred million pieces there in the sunlight

And covered the shore with crystal shards of yourself, of your heart

And all that you were and  ever had been.

And suddenly the winds changed direction

And carried me back to that shore

And dropped me there upon the shattered pieces of you

And I lay there, a tiny rose petal, who had loved you with all it's heart

And I wept like a thousand hurricanes

Full of tears for you and all you'd meant to me.

Until one of the shards of you fell on me

And tore me to ribbons

And we were both shattered in that one moment

And both stunned at the realization

That we were not as strong as we thought we were

We were fragile, so fragile

And we were dying.........................

And the world would go on in it's never ending cosmic dance

Without us.

©by Voo

May 25. 2019